Kau Jangan Tertipulah Dengan Luaran Aku Yg Konon Angelic Ni!

Bukak paper, keluar mcm2 cerita masalah sosial remaja Melayu Islam. Seks bebas lah, clubbing la, arak la, buang anak n bla3...

Apa tindakan kita? Mcm biasa, mengutuk, menghentam "hai, anak sape la ni...x ajar...buruk perangai xleh wat bini..." bla3...

Lepas tu, kite sambung balik tgk TV or whatever.

Pernah x kite terfikir, "kenapa agaknya jadi mcm tu?"

Jarang kot. Yang aku pernah nmpk selalunya, masyarakat konservatif dan kolektivistik mcm kite ni lbh gemar 'go wit the flow' n membenci, menghukum mereka2 yg 'deviant' instead of finding the punca or solutions whatsoever.

Aku prnh dgr org ckp, x elok kutuk or benci something tu lebih2 sgt..sbb 1 hari bnda tu akan dtg blk kt kite...it's true..

Masyarakat kalau nk bg nasihat pun, dorang masih lagi gemar menyampaikan dgn unsur2 sinis mcm 'pandai buat, pandai la tanggung'...mcm ada elemen 'padan muka' di situ tapi disampaikan dlm nada yg berlapik lah...konon mcm dorg sdri xkn buat bnda2 mcm tu, konon.

To me, cara plg elok nk btolkan dgn budak2' sosial' ni (if u want), is not by giving a ceramah yg sejibik mcm dlm ceramah2 kt skolah2 or radio n remind them with balasan neraka... we hv to be close to them, understand them n talk their language...yes, talk their language....slow2 dlu, bg reasoning yg logical, instead of 'spritual', then mst punya lah akan masuk jarum...it's all about communication n persuasion, baby...heh..tu pn nk ajar ka? Speak their language n buat dgn cara berhikmah..heh,..Nabi dlu pn xde nk dok smpaikan ajaran die kt org2 kafir dgn cara extreme...

Golongan yg lbh senior yg x membesar dlm era MTV, AF, YouTube, swearing...ah, mcm2 lagi la..mmg la xkn phm peel budak2 skrg...tp yg phm tu, aku salute! Hey, life is tough now even for a 11-year-old, no doubt about it.

Anyways, buat golongan muda mcm u ol ni, sila dalami persoalan retorik aku tu dlm2....'why'? Alah, xkn korg2 dlu2 xpnah ade rase 'curious' dlm diri? Nak2 zmn remaja dlu? Or, maybe zmn2 korg jauh dr family n ade total ultimate freedom utk buat ape saje yg korg nk?

Look, aku kt cni bkn la nk suruh u ol yg baik2 ni go against the rule of our religion n culture (though I prefer religion than culture) just to get what u want. U wanna have sex with ur partner in ur bedroom? U wanna smoke pot / ciggie etc? U wanna dress sexily n hit the clubs with ur girlfriends? Go ahead, but remember, we're Muslims and Malays (translation : Kalau nak kene halau rumah or kene pelangkung makbapak, buat lah)

Do u get me? Yes, we HAVE to abstain from all those wrongdoings cos we're Muslims and Malays. But, as far as nature goes, human being, specifically teenagers, no, hormone-laden teens n youths, have a thing called 'CURIOSITY' in them. They WANT to do things that r forbidden to them.

Don't lie to me, tudung-ed girls that I know of, paling kuat desire 'nakal' dorang ialah to dress sexily n look 'nice', baru lah moden n up-to-dateyo...tp xleh, makbapak mrh kang.. (well, me included, heh to tu dlu la)....hey, if u got it, flaunt it kan? I mean, it's natural... tgk lah trend2 skrg...1 malaysia kan.. the media, peer pressure...n kata2 org (pkai tdg tp buat maksiat) lah yg membuatkan mereka2 lagi mahu turutkan kemahuan ini bukan?

SO yeah, every teenage girl DO dream of it, muslim girls included...to look desirable, young n up to date...

Lagi 1, about wanting to have a bf.. mcm aku time zmn2 masuk matrik dlu, bru nk ade bf kot.. tu pn sbb tgk org keliling ade bf mcm best je...so aku pn go wit the flow la jgk...see it's all abt peer pressure..

Ckp psl hal cintan cintun ni, kte move on to kes2 buang anak.... pernah x kite selami budak2 ni as to y dorg nk wat bnda2 terkutuk tu? Yg kite cume tau ckp 'ei,, bodo punya pempuan! habih la keturunan die...da xde dara tu, xde sape laki yg nak'..n bla3...as usual...

Girls usually give 'it' to the guy they want because of love.. L.O.V.E..but the problem is, guy will then turn up to be a real dick by saying that that girl's being a slut cos gave 'it' b4 her marriage...eventhough, yes, usually the guys r the one who ASKED for it. Worse, kes2 buang anak ni, pernah x kte tgk muke si lelaki tu dipampang kt paper? Knp mst muke gurls tu je yg berslh? Look, mmg lah gurl tu "dungu" sbb "x fikir sblm buat", tapi... tp antara gurl n boy, sape yg ade 9 akal? Sape yg sepatutnya bimbing kaum yg lemah? Sape? Btol lah...dah la lelaki makin pupus skrg, yg ada pun stok2 yg x berkualiti.. *geram*...mmg dunia nk kiamat..

Knp yg lelaki cpat benar nk lpas tanggungjawab n run away when the girl's already being knocked up? Kate nk sehidup semati...sehidup semati my ass... Die sdri pn berdosa skali, so..share la dosa ngn ur gf! Pernah x kite tgk kes buang anak kt Western countries? Bru2 ni aku de terdgr sorg white boy ckp 'hey, If my girl is pregnant with my kid, I'd man up and take responsibility of her'...now that's music to the ear.. Knp agaknye Malay culture yg sgt2 "cultured" boleh jd lg binatang dr Western cultures yg sememangnye bkn nye ade culture pon?

*sigh*

I don't know, not that I'm trying to act all saintly here, believe me, I myself am not excepted from having sinned myself. But it's just that, whenever I see these girls, Malay girls, who live a very social life, even drank liquor, had premarital sex, had their babies, or even aborted them to hide their 'shame', I pity them, I don't go haywire with 'murtad! murtad!' with them, I just...it's sort of like, I understand why they act that way.. I even befriended some of them and turn out, slalunye girls mcm dorg nila yg lbh honest dr girls2 yg bertdg mcm aku nih..but then, bkn la nk ckp sal tdg...tp aku tau...dorg mcm tu sbb they're confident ppl...they know what they want in life n persistent about it...and they're daredevils n risktakers...that's y...but not that I'm encouraging us Malay girls to go freehair and have a social life, just that, come on, there are more to these girls than what they look like outside..and honesty...now that's what I love in girls...I really2 hate hypocrite girls and girls who talk behind their friends' back..n usually these types of girls r the ones yg ade konon 'good girl image'..lg2 yg bertdg labuh...suke act as if they know better than everyone else..

*sigh*

Yes, it's the damned Westerns who have screwed up our Malay Muslim generation, everyone says that...we have soooo many bad influence from TV, radio etc. But hasn't it occured to u that, hey, we Malays are equally becoming social deviants, sometimes even worse than the Westerns themselves? (read : Mangga magazines, Akademi Fantasia, Melodi, urgh..bla3..)

So who's at fault? Is it the teens / youths alone? Yes, we do admit sometimes they come from good families, good parents, even religious parents...and we question our surprise , why is it happening so and so...

Hasn't it ever occured to you, that the more you restrict ppl from doing a certain thing, the more that thing becomes more interesting and intriguing to them? (lagi dilarang, lagi nak dibuat?)

Pernah x korang rase, zmn kecik2 dlu, bile korang nak pegi main kt satu tempat n mak korg larang jgn pegi tmpt tu....korg mst ade lg rase nk pegi kn? Walaupun dilarang...cube kalau reverse psychology, rse2nye korg pn give up n mls nk pegi...

And, knp agak2 masalah sosial byk berlaku kt Malays? Ape jadi kt Chinese and Indians? Kite tgk, selalunye Chinese and Indians la yg lg rajin study mudy, berjaya n dpt kerja bgus2? We? Sibuk dgn hal2 rumahtangga artis n gosip dgn jiran sblh... Urgh~

One more factor la...there ARE certain kids who just resent and TIRED of being 'nice', or pertaining a 'good girl / boy image'....it's no surprise to me when these news about 'eh, xsangke budak tu buat keje2 tu...bla3..' arises, bcos u know what, sometimes these ppl tend to be either gullible, or pressured by peers to do certain2 'bad' things, or just plain 'daring' to change who they are just for the sake of....wait for it...ATTENTION... tapi mslhnye once they try to act all deviant, ppl will judge them juz for that ONE thing they screwed up..

*sigh*

So my conclusion is, dear Malay society, friends, parents of friends, older people, please be understanding and listen to us new generation Malay kids more. .It doesn't hurt to listen, or at least please please please explain to us why we can't do certain2 things...we're very curious ppl and will only take logical explanation to not do what we want to do..and fellow friends, kalau korg nmpk kwn korg tu skema rama ke ape, tlg lah...xpyh la pressure them to be all 'bad'...they'll come out of their shell when they want to..don't go all screwing them and when they do, u'll ditch them.

Ass.

I'm a True Libra, I Am

(These excerpts are copied from the Internet, but skimmed and analyzed by myself :)

1. Self-realization

The Libra personality is one with a strong sense of right and wrong, who despises discord and confrontation. These are tactful people who approach life with a bit of sugar-coating to make the ride less bumpy for themselves and for those around them.
* Hehe...very true....but guys, it's not good to always sugar-coat everything....always be honest with ur feelings n ppl around u.. :)

Libra appreciates beauty, and will usually have top quality possessions and a tasteful wardrobe and hair style.
Because Venus, the goddess of love, rules Libras, they appreciate beauty in anything, whether it is a person, art, or music. Because Libras love and appreciate beauty, their homes are often filled with exquisite and attractive items. They enjoy owning the best money can buy and take pride in their good taste. Because of their affection for beauty, Libras make great designers, artists, and musicians.

* I do...I've always loved to collect cutesy things, I always admire tasteful fashions, beautiful people, etc.. ;)

Libras do not handle criticism very well, which often makes them seem insecure. But one of their biggest faults is the need for admiration. They like to be the centre of attention and be praised for things they do, so some may see them as self-centred.

* Heheh...I USED to be this person... :p I just need some pat on the back, not really a limelight, yet again, ppl might be confused with that.. :p

2. Work
This is a good networker with a lot of business contacts, who is good at bringing people together for the common good. Co-workers will find Libra charming and diplomatic, and will often seek out Libra with personal or professional problems due to Libra's ability to see both sides of the issue.
*No wonder I always feel like I have a knack to be a PR / be involved with the media etc :o

Libra may not be the fastest worker due to his tendency to examine all aspects of a task, but the finished product will generally be near perfect, with all the bases covered.
* So true....my mum ALWAYS said I do my work very slowly, but in reality, no, that's not what's happening....I have my own pace when it comes to doing tasks / jobs :p

Due to his inherent need for balance and justice, Libra can generally be trusted to deal with issues in the workplace fairly and honestly.

* Heheh.... ;p

3. Friendship
Libras are generally well-liked in their social circles and function best in situations in which they are surrounded by admiring friends and family.

In their quest to be all things to all people, Libra may come off as somewhat flirtatious in some instances, and may have a tendency towards gossip, as they can't get enough of learning all about the people around them.

* "Learning all abt the ppl around them"...yep, so true... ;)

They are the peacekeepers of the zodiac, and when trouble arises, you can count on Libra to help smooth ruffled feathers.

Libra in any relationship is a loyal friend who is interested in your issues and who will bend over backwards to treat you fairly. However, watch out for little white lies that are designed to sugar coat the rough edges of reality for you.

* Huh~ :(

Libra will be kind and compassionate, and will welcome you into their circle of friends readily.

* So true... :)

In general, friendship with a Libra will be an easy-going, long-lasting, satisfying experience.

4. Love
If you have found a romantic partner in Libra, you have found a classy, intelligent, caring, and sensual partner indeed. Your Libra mate will be loyal and fair, and will be an empathetic listener who will ignore your shortcomings for the sake of harmony in the relationship. For those who are Libras, do make a quick mental check to be sure that you are not hooking up just to have someone around. The mentality that anyone is better than no one is very strong in the Libra personality and may cause you to make unfortunate mistakes in your choice of partners.

:( :( :( :( (I'll try....Insya Allah :))

The best matches for Libra are Aquarius, Gemini, and another Libra. With a little work, relationships with Leo, Virgo, or Sagittarius may last. It will likely be tough going with Aries, Cancer, and Capricorn.

* The guy I'm currently with - err, he's a Cap....and we DID had a few blows since our early courtship it threatened our relationship...but more on him later...

Because they are so understanding of other's feelings, they may be seen as indecisive or unable to make up their minds. Any sign as blessed with charm as Libras are can always be seen as flirtatious.

* Tetttt! In your face!

Because a Libra values beauty so much, they may sometimes become too focused on outward beauty and forget to look deeper into a person's full character.

*Hmm.....maybe true....once..but I'm on my way towards becoming a better person... :)

5. Famous Librans

Actors/Entertainers

• Michael Douglas
• Susan Sarandon
• Angela Lansbury
• Carrie Fisher
• Matt Damon
• Gwyneth Paltrow
• Naomi Watts
• Jean-Claude Van Damme
• Alicia Silverstone (she even shares birth date with me! :p - 4 October)
• Kate Winslet

Musicians/Singers

• Sting
• John Lennon
• Chuck Berry
• Luciano Pavarotti

Artists/Writers

• T.S. Elliot
• Truman Copote
• E.E. Cummings
• Friedrich Nietzsche

Leaders/Politicians

• Mahatma Gandhi
• Jesse Jackson
• Margaret Thatcher
• Dwight Eisenhower
• Jess Helms

P/S : Oh, this is Ne-Yo's latest album...eh, is he a Libran too? :p

I'm Fallin' For You, Baby~

I don't know but...

I think I maybe fallin' for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

keep this to myself

Waiting 'til I..

know you better

I am trying..

Not to tell you..

But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hiding..

what I'm feeeling..

But I'm tired of

Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my..time

Just thinking about ya

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life

and now i found ya

I dont know what to do

I think I'm falling for you...

I'm falling for you...

As I'm standing here

And you look into my eyes

Walked closer to me

and my heart just skipped a beat

All around us

I see nobody

Here in silence

It's juusst

you and me

I'm trying..

Not to tell you..

But I want to..

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hiding..

what I'm feeeling...

But I'm tired of

Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my.. time

Just thinking about ya

I dont know what to do

I think i'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my.. life

And now I found ya

I dont know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you...

I'm fallin' for you...

Ooh, I just can't take it..

My heart is racing..

Emotions keep spinning out...

Oooh, I'm falling' for ya

Of Trust, Hope & Love

Hope

Sometimes when we put our hopes too high, just be aware that...do not put it too high...or else when u can't achieve it, u'll fall..

Hope applies to almost evrything in our life, in friendship, in love..family..we humans are social animals...we need sum1 in our lives...some ppl may saythat they are content in living in solidarity...but no..they're in denial (or so i thought)..deep in their heart / soul / mind, surely they long to share their bits of lives with sum1..at least 1 person..or an animal...to share with...

In fostering a friendship, a normal human being has the feeling to belong..they want to be accepted..by a clique, group, a friend, whatever..thus they'll make anything to get what they want - to be accepted...just...anything...i dunno...do some wild things ur friend told u too...or just simply by smiling n saying 'hello'...then, bam...we have welcomed a stranger into our life - a once-stranger, to be transformed into what we call a friend..

In being in a relationship, we want to love and feel loved..thus... why are there so many "stupid love songs" and "stupid soap operas" keep airing and playing in the media, in our daily lives? kenape asek2 cinta kan? hmm...org yg xprnah bercinta secara serius xkan akui ini...they'll just brush it off n smirk..sambil nyanyi lagu 'aku xpercaya cinta'..hahaha..

oh well, the writer is also guitly of being 'that' kinda person once *wink2*.. but yeah, as I grew, and I gained some life experience, love, to me, is powerful...it can make or break us...'love feels like heaven but hurts like hell' (damn i totally dig this quote!)...

So normally, they say a girl is more needy than a boy...but...hmm...a boy usually makes the first move when they r interested in a girl...unless, in this modern age, the opposite will happen..but heck, i think guys still love it when they know that THEY are in charge...so yeah, to me, i prefer to keep it old-fashioned n let the guy makes the first move..

Hmm..but then, girls may be needy, but a guy's love is usually pure n serious (haha...but it might not apply to playboys n jerks.. ;p )... i mean, yeah, girls are needy, that sometimes, bile mamat kaya or pndai ngayat da ejas sket, mule cair da minah tu...balak lame tolak tepi..haha...kesian bf lame die...yeap, gurls r cruel..n this is the part where I said, ' a guy's love is more serious n pure'...


(hah! g matilah sarah! mane de..pempuan pn ade yg setia ape?)

hahah...yeah,. i admit...mmg ade je pempuan2 yg sanggup bengkak2 mate semate2 for a jerk they call their bf / syg / honey bunch whatsoever...but for what? they know they're being stupid, but ...yeah as i told u, love is powerful..bcos of love, one can go out of their mind..

so there...in a friendship, we strive to jaga our friends' heart..we tatang them like a minyak yg pnuh (sort of) n juz agrees with what they say / do...hey, we're buddies, right? n in a relationship, kite xnmpk ape cacat cela pn pasangan kte tu...as they say 'no one is perfect until we fall in love with them" (dang i like this quote too! ) ;p....we love them, put all our hearts in them..n before u know it...


Ur frend had been talking behind ur back..ur frend had been isolating u 4 no reason...ur frend is being dishonest with u...

or..

Ur date is no longer talking to u...he/she has someone else behind ur back..he/she is not what u expected him to be..he/she is juz using u...


That's what happens when we place our hopes too high on the people around us..when confrontations no longer solve the problem..sometimes the best way is juz too leave these ppl...eventhough we always hope that we cud juz start it all over again...

Rants

1) So today, I was criticized, it's regarding my work ethic. That I'm not being efficient enough, That I'm not organized enough. That I'm very bad at my time management skills. Oh, lemme check that again. So what are on my list currently? Oh yeah :
- To do a market research (estimated time to finish : 2-3 weeks, requirement : to sit in front of the laptop, making phone calls to the right person, bla3..taking notes, presenting a report or some sort)
- To look for accommodations for upcoming new staffs (from overrrrsea, uu....) - so haruslah cari rumah2 yg tip top, xmo la umah setinggan yg rm500 sebulan, kemas dan bersih tp KECIK tu kn..dorg nye standard mane la nak umh kecik2 ni, haruslah rumah yg beso2, plg2 koman rm1200 sebulan pn bleh lg...asalkan nmpk mhl...itulah die.. (estimated time to finish : a few weeks as well, provided that I have ample time to go out of the office ans scout around, making phone calls, n if I do, have to follow-up with the agent rumah, arranging time for my boss to go over there, then follow- up some more, then kalau dorg xske, oh ye, repeat step 1 again..) - and un-officially I'm also the 'ajen rumah' of my company
- To arrange for a VIP's upcoming visit around this month in terms of preparing the office deco (portrait of VIP, posters, layouts, printing bla3..) and guess what, I'm usually the person yg have to go outside to those print shops...
- AT the same time, upkeeping of office supplies and...
- Upkeeping of monthly payroll
- Taking care of MOST of the things at the office
- Oh yeah, not only handling the technical stuffs, but handling perangai2 n peel2 bosses n senior management yg mcm H.A.R.A.M.


I was the one who ran the office since the past year, underappreciated...And they're telling me how to do my work...

2) Men
- Just what is it with men who :
a) is curang, but xpandai cover line? masalahnye, in the end, we got scolded by their unknowing gf, yg konon2nye kte yg menggatal, padahal balak die sdri yg terhegeh2 kt kte...pastu bile kantoi, dgn ajaibnye mamat2 ni kecut egg n trus menghilang...c'mon, be a man!
b) who juz refuses to confront a problem by not communicating baik2 dgn his girl? i know it's nature's law, but at the time, it's bugging me...

Moped...

Now, all was well yesterday.And the day after. I was feeling over the top, singing my heart out, until...tonight..

I just saw something ... which made me

1) sad, guilty, stupid

2) look stupid, angry, n just...irritated and annoyed

Man, weekend nights r supposed to be relaxing, but..heck, yeah, I KNOW it's only temporary..provided I only have 2 days of relaxing (which cud b freakin' short of a time!) then it's back to work again. Back to the old nagging boss who constantly forgets and then, xde keje len, menyergah org len sebelum tau asal usul cite. Nice.

I feel so down now that I cud relax to Westlife's rendering of 'I Wanna Grow Old With You'. ;(

Made me feel...I wanna be loved again. For someone to take care after me, know what's on my mind, know how to touch me...touch me inside... (now ni terpengaruh lagu jojo sebelum tu, 'how to touch a girl'..haih~) love me, above all...

I'm gonna feel so down tomorrow...dah la Isnin...

I'm a sensitive person. Aku ni kalau org kate sket, aku akn terase..dan ini bukan kate aku gemuk, or aku ckp byk ke ape...heck, aku laaagi suke bile org ckp aku ckp byk, instead of the other way around..

I just xsuke ..bile...I'm connected with all things dowdy n frumpy. Cos my life mmg da bosan, n then org nmpk aku cm bosan padehal aku bleh je msuk sume org..n they misjudge me.damn, i hate it when they misjudge me.

So, all in all...i just hope I'll still turn out OK tomorrow. Pls y'all, pray for me...

Rant Post!

- Aku paling hangin workmate yg xreti bekerjasama dan plg truk, xde initiative, lembap, slow, blur..ye r, kitorang keje 1 department, bos pn 'pndai' dgn meng-hire 2 org malang ni jela utk handle 90% of the office work. Nice.

- Workmate tu lak, da tau base kt Ipoh, (dlu KL), pepandai r bwk diri kt Ipoh ni. Xtau nk bli ink katrij printer kt ne? Ye, kte mmg ade driver, tp asal nk hrp driver sorg tu? Awk bkn xtau drebar kte tu pn ade sorg je, sorg tuuuu jela gak yg g kulu kilir bwk mem beso kte.nk hrp kt die gak lg? abeh kalo katrij printer da menyala2 merah kate 0% je ink tinggal, bru terhegeh2 nk g bli? alasan? xtau kt ipoh ni mane nk bli.

- Bkn kdai ink printer je, tp segala la...nk bli whiteboard xtau kdai stationery ktne.. nk bli kopi n gula utk pantry xtau kdai runcit ktne..pastu sabtu lari ke utara sbb g klas belaja master (aku bkn nk hlg kau blaja, tp kau xmembantu aku lgsg dlm situasi ni! tlg la, kalo ko ade INISIATIF nk tlg2 pebende yg perlu dibuat instead of main game fesbuk je, xde la aku bengang tahap gaban cmni! aku da plan nk bwk ko tour ipoh ari sbtu tp da xjd la cmni. ah bagus!)

- Bkn aku berat mulut sgt nk gtau, tp mslhnye, aku mmg leh gtau..cume aku irritated sbb care kau mcm kau don care langsung sal opis..kau cume wat keje yg bos bg kt kau..bnda2 len ko x amek tau...pastu kau men game fesbuk lbh dr aku! aku lgsg xnah sntuh game fb aku tau! Aku dtg2 opis lg da kne bergerak sane sini, kdg2 nasik lemak bru bli pn x berbukak lg, nk kne bukak komputer dlu. kau ape tau? dtg opis bkn pkul 8.30 pn, tp pkul 9! (tu pn plg awal!)

- Pastu kul 5.30 sgt tepat lak mase nk balik. Just great. Nila pekerja contoh yg kte mau.

Tensen Tensen Tensen.......

Kat tempat kerja :

- Makcik cleaner yg annoying

- Pekerja yg lembap dan x efisien

- Sistem company yg ntahape2

- Kene handle byk org yg ntahape2

- Dtg2 opis, bnda2 kecik pn kne handle jgk, meaning selain taip surat n col2 org, ni pintu bilik bos pn aku kne bukakkan utk makcik cleaner cuci..die xleh bkk sbb die xde kunci..n die xde kunci sbb die xleh ade kunci...grrrr! bile aku lupe nk bkk, da jd leceh sbb aku kne bgn dr work station aku tgh syok2 wat keje len yg lbh best n executive-like!

- Skg ni, aku handle bhg admin..tp kitorang masih lam fasa set up office..so byk bnda xde.even stationery pn kne beli..pastu sume staf kne smbil2 blaja byk bnda..i know this is common, but it's too much. I'm damn overloaded with work. Dah ckp kt bos, i need an assistant, tp sbb die x cukp funding,has to ask every staff to multitask la...oh ma FG!

Rumah :

- Xleh relaks sket, kne wat kerja umah

- Bile bergayut (ngn sape2 je), kerja x jln

- Segala2nya terkwal - pergerakan dan pemikiran aku

-Hey! Nak keluar hari Sabtu pn x boleh tau! Mak aku x bg..katenye "nape la nk kua..duk umh wat keje umh lg bagus...tu katil bilik tu berhabuk, baik la dikemas:@ "musim2 org skt ni watpe kua?"@ "nape nk kua?nk shopping lg?brp byk bju da bli?"

2 options:

- berhenti kerja n duk umh

- be a happy & positive person

So arini aku nk enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aku............

Aku bukan nk bermusuh dgn kau. Tapi kau kena igt, kau x knal sepenuhnya sapa diri aku. Kau igt kau boleh miliki siapa2 di muka bumi ni? Siapa kau, kau cuma manusia biasa mcm aku juga..yg x lari dr kesilapan.. yg lemah..yg naif...

Aku relakan kau, apa saja keputusan kau..sbb aku cuma berpegang pada prinsip, "Kita hanya mampu merancang saja, tp yg Di-Atas yg menentukan.."

Lagi sekali aku kata, aku bkn nk bermusuh dgn kau...


(Sekali sekala berpuisi sdp jgk... ;p)

Aku Nyampah Betol Bile.... (2)

1) Time nk jemur kain, sebelum jemur tu kene clear-kan ampaian dgn mengangkat kain2 yg sblm ni sdh kering.. seryes weh! X ske...xtau nape..ske kalo de org yg tlg angkatkan...sbb mood aku tgh gigih nk sidai bju, skali dgn adenye baju2 kering tersebut yg blum diangkat, seakan mcm membunuh mood ku. Siyes. Sum1 plis angkatkan kain2 kering itu.. Saya sudah penat2 membasuh baju ni, tolong ye..bkn ssh sgt pn kn... ;p

2) Kalau sinki jenis yg ade 2 tmpt, dua-dua sink kotor time aku nk basuh pinggan (ok, skg ni maybe aku da mule kedengaran mcm org yg pembersih gile! Huhu..korg2 plis don't hate me..I'm not, actually...just on certain things - hehe, yela tu 'certain'..ni siap bwat list..huhu)....Cos bile basuh pinggan, sebaik2nye sebelah utk sume pinggan kotor dan sebelah lg utk membilas...aku rase lbh clean n organized cmtu..huhu...bagaimana pula dgn sinkin yg xde 2 tmpt? Err...err...hehe...tu...mmg aku basuh pinggan satu2...ahaks!

3) Pe lagi ek selain hal2 berkaitan kebersihan ni? huhu...emm... ok, ha, aku xske lauk nenas ikan masin r...aku rase, rase die pelik...uhuks! (sowi pade sesape yg suke lauk tersebut..)

4) Gulai asam pedas ikan yg ikan die berbau kuat gile..potong btol, ok?! (ok, perihal makanan lg...haish! domestik sungguh aku ni?)

5) Pe lg ni .....emmm...t r...tgu aku update! Kalau bleh nk crk pet peeves aku yg bkn berkaitan makanan / kebersihan lg..haha!

Aku Nyampah Betol Bile....

Hye there dear readers! ;) (motif tibe2 ceria mcm akak pengacara Disney Channel? Tah. Nak ilangkan tensen di pejabat mungkin.)

So, da lame btol x update blog ni dgn posting2 yg bersahaja n santai..so, here goes..

Aku paling nyampah / alergik bile.....

1) Tengok bakul sampah yang kosong tanpa plastik pengalas, tapi sampah da byk! Urgh! Someone plis put a plastik in therrrr... (ekceli, kt umah aku pn slalu gak blaku bnde ni..pastu sume maleh nk g amek plastik..lame2 bakul sampah tu pn terkene sampah2 basah mcm kulit pisang / chewing gum dsb.. ish3.. ;( )

2) Kalau kat restoran / dining ke ape..ade hidangan berkuah mcm sup / tomyam, tp X ADA MANGKUK ! Oi org kantin yg mangkuk! (ha kn da kne panggil mangkuk) cmna aku nk mkn sup2 ni kalo xde mangkuk ha? Ape die? X dgr...weh, aku xnk la mkn ngn nasik pastu sudukan dgn sudu...mmg la boleh, tp byk mane sgt kuah dpt kalo mkn cmtu? Which brings us to...

3) Makan lauk2 kering dlm sepinggan nasik yg da banjir dgn sup / tomyam ke ape...aku kalau bleh, bnda2 berkuah (yg mmg ptt mkn berkuah dgn sudu tu) cmtu aku nk buh lam mangkuk..bg asing....eh, kalau gulai lain ok? i mean, kate la aku banjirkan nasik ngn kuah tempoyak ke (pergh!), haaa, tu xpe..aku dgn slambe akn cmpur ayam goreng, sayur n sambal belacan pastu - double pergh!)

4) Basuh baju atas lantai bilik mandi / toilet...yg penting jgn la atas lantai, ok?! Kdg2 mak aku pn ske wat cmni..xtau r, tp aku tgk...aku lbh rela basuh baju atas para ke meja ke...(anyway, kt umh aku mmg ade tmpt khas nk bsuh bju kt blkg umh, tp ntah nape mak aku cukup ske nk bsuh style gitu gak.. -_-") eeeee...geli la..kt lantai tu kn kte da buang air, air bdn time mandi da kne, then cmne kalo period plak? Bwek3!

K..bwat mase ni, takat ni je ranting aku...huhuhuhu~

Ramadhan 2009 - Ketibaanmu kutunggu....

Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya aku telah berdosa..
Selama ini aku menjauhkan diri dari-Mu, mengambil ringan perintah-Mu,
Aku telah lupa untuk berdoa kepada-Mu..

Telingaku telah kalis dari ayat-ayat suci-Mu...
Hatiku telah hitam...malah tersangat hitam akibat sudah lama tidak mendengar dan menyerap zat-zat suci...
Aku telah lalai...aku telah alpa..
Hatiku juga telah menjadi sempit..dengan semakin byk masalah dunia...

Maka aku bersyukur dengan ketibaan Ramadhan tahun ini...
Moga-moga aku dapat menyucikan diri ini dan hati ini..sama seperti diriku yang lama dahulu...
Suci dari noda-noda dunia...~

Ya Allah, ampunkan aku..sesungguhnya aku hamba-Mu yang lemah... ;(

Uncle Hussain Cakap Kerjalah...Lalalala...

Skg.....da keje....
Pnat gile weh....x menang tgn dibuatnye.....
La ni baghu nak ghase keje sebenar....
Aduh.....

Pelakon Air Mata Yet Again..

Iklan : Lepas ni...kene bwat phone call lagi...hurm....Prestasi aku di tempat keje mcm makin merosot..

Semalam..
I found out that I am actually able to be a 'pelakon air mata' spontan...
I was able to say serious things when in my heart, I'm a kiddie...
When I'm confronted with that matter..

You said you have lost the battle..I said 'no, let's move on...masa kita panjang lagi...byk perlu ditempuhi...jgn tamatkan zaman muda ni begitu cpt dan putus asa..'

*is that how I say it? ohh, but..anggap la lbh krg kn...anyho, that IS what I want to say..*

Ahhhh.......
Sangat la x pandai bermadah2 pujangga mcm ni kan...tapi...I have to let it all out..

Runsing skg...mcm2 hal blaku...keje...die...uh!

Tgk flash mob zombie pun lagi seronok la!

Hope kite x runsing sgt, ok...bahaya utk kesihatan... ingat Tuhan byk2...Dia Maha Penyayang...~

Gemuknya Aku... Ya Allah!!

Hari ni, 2x tuka baju sebelum g opis... memule kai cardigan, tp singkat n nmpk butt, then tuka baju kurta (mcm bju labuh yg indians slalu pkai) itam, tp die fit n nmpk seksi..x proper la kan...dah la bum besa...so tuka..last2 pkai cardigan putih yg pjg sket n x ktt kt perut..

Bleh je nk pkai baju kurung, senang, tutup aurat satu, lg satu nmpk r sopan sket... n xla menonjol sgt drpd staf2 opis len yg kebyknnye kai bju kurung...kalau kai sua pun, dorg kai dgn bju kemeja opis/company....uhuk~

Sbb aku ni natural-born fashionista, aku mmg ske menongkah arus sket dlm bab pemakaian ni...aku gak byk dipengaruhi oleh majalah2 cm cleo, teen vogue, yg bile jumpe artikel sal office wear, aku lbh teruja tgk style2 blaus, pdn dgn sua slek yg mcm mane, lg kalau leh pkai ngn skirt labuh, nk pkai mcm mane...kaler ape yg sesuai utk opis sume...kureng sket ngn idea pakai bju kurung tiap2 ari ni..kt U dlu pn, seboleh2nye aku nk pkai sua...tp kalau btol2 perlu kai sumting decent utk menutup 'keseksian' di bhg2 tertentu...aku akur....ya lah, bkn rugi ape pn kn...huhu...nk g blaja je pn...bt then, i oso believe in looking good while ur studying/taking notes and all...i akn jd bersemangat sket pastu...u look good, u feel good...anyway, not that aku membenci sgt bju kurung...dlm seminggu plg2 aku pkai 2x r kn...kt U n kt opis skg...

nk je pkai skirt, last time pkai skirt ngn kemeja time matrik dlu je..skg nk pkai, tula...if only my bottom is not so 'prosperous'...leh r aku nk pkai skirt2 labuh itu...atau sua slek yg saiz mmg utk aku...ni kalau saiz 36 pn da ktt, cmne bai? aku ni pear-shape rupenye kot eh..gemuk dr tummy ke bwh...kt situuuuuu jgk lemak2 nk berkumpul kn...kt perut pun die ske je nk hinggap...kalau aku pakai kain guni itam kt bwh kn, pastu duduk kt meja, org bleh tertipu gak tgk aku igtkan kurus slim, rupenye, bile aku jln, arrgh! mcm patung marishka dr rusia ni...

Eh, ni gemuk btol chubby dr muke ni! Ahh, lantak la..get my point, rite? Huhu...

pastu lemak tu ske duduk lame2 kt prot ni...aku da try get rid (exercise) pn die degil jgk nk duduk situ..seolah2 mcm nk ckp yg aku ni da mmg ditakdirkan utk boncit n ber-bum besa mcm mak org anak 4... -_-"*sedih* mak org anak 5 pn, ntah2 x besa cm aku...

ok la...losing weight is NOT an easy feat. heh, utk seseorg yg follow 'Biggest Loser' sampai season 4.... emmm...should not be...sbb dlm cite tu, org yg 400 paun pn leh trn sampai 200 paun, ni kan pulak aku yg cume 100++ paun ni...

aku rase lemak bdn aku ni jns yg degil r... (surrender)

x pun sbb brt tulang je kot..eheh ....eheh... (gelak nervous)

x pun, emmmmm...maybe org yg brt 300++ paun tu sng trn sbb dorg brt lemak kot...aku ni maybe brt muscle je kot.. (dah berat muscle pulak? mcm2 la bdk ni kn..)

tp...aku bkn xpnh exercise and eat right...it's just that....i dunno...it didn't work...die dah nk work pn, there r too many temptations at home...mcm pg ni, da elok2 aku tgk bdn aku kt cermin, flab kt perot tu mcm nk susut...aku bkk tdg saji tgk breakfast ade pe....slalunye roti bkr je mak bwat kan...skali......NASI LEMAK mak bwat!!! Arrgghhhh!!! Tidak! Nasik lemak mak aku mmg la sdp..kalau beli kt org punya yg aku liat nk mkn...tp ni,,,mak punya....

owh, shit ,man..shit, shit...kalau x mkn ari ni, bile lg mak akn bwat kn....

so ambik la...nasik nye..emm, rasenye nasik separuh je....tp pas mkn da mule rase bersalah...knp la x terpikir nk bungkus je nsk tu utk mkn time lunch nnt kn? da la plan xnk trn kafe arinin cos tkt abg kafe tu tgk aku ni pelik cos bdn mcm mak org....argh!! ahhh!! budus2!

pedas oo nsk lemak pg ni.....fuhh! mak pkai cili kering ni! xpela..tetibe ade mentol berbunyi 'ting' kt kepala..."kalau mkn pds pagi2, pastu kt opis kang kunyah cereal sket utk cepatkan penghadaman, sure akan bernyahtinja pagi ni..." yes! mknn menggemukan itu akn kua blk! huhu...n tetibe gak tingat org2 bulimia...tp, tu len...dorg pakse mknn kua kn..then ikut mulut...plan aku ni....x...hehehe~ eh lg pn aku x ske muntah2 do...pnat ooo..

ok...cubaan hari kedua post-menstruation days utk menurunkan berat bdn...haih..ntah la...aku kt U dlu, xnah exercise pn tetiap ari dgn tekun, mkn 3 kali sehari cm bese, leh je kurus...ni kt umh, diet n exercise mcm nk gile pn, bleh plak nk bertmbh brt bdn tu....ape kes? mmg kene pose kot? n lidah ni kne thn dr bernafsu nk mkn sdp2 kot... ;(

Sedikit Kata2 Untuk Awak....

Saye selalu pelik dgn awk...

Pada saye,
Awk selalu merendah diri...berfikir itu dan ini...padahal tiada ape yg ptt awk fikirkan utk merendahkan lagi self-esteem awk...

Kenape? Lupekan saje lah past awk...awk buat mcm yg saye buat..saye dah lupe diri saye yg dulu..dan skrg saye happy...well, xla sgt...tp i do feel better..

Kenape awk slalu ckp bnde yg same? Seolah2 awk suke hidup in the past...no, u must live in the present...kalau past awk tu gloomy, that is...u hv to erase it jauh2..

Hari ni, fikiran saye masih post-keruan-x-keruan...lebih absent minded dr biase...sy melintas jalan pagi tadi buat pertame kalinye saye x pndg kiri kanan...ibu dah menjerit 'Lori!' sebab ade lori dtg ke arah kanan saye dan saye lupe toleh...cume beberapa inci saje dari saye, lori itu...awk tau, adik kecik saye ade skali dgn saye mase tu....SANGAT bahaya..

Alhamdulillah, Allah masih sygkan saye...saye sendiri xtau kenape saye jadi sampai mcm itu...
Kerane saye teringatkan awk, fikirkan ttg awk...saye x tenang...

Saye ade mslh lain jgk, tp bile masalah saye dgn awk wujud je, tibe2 masalah2 lain jd lbh besar..

Tapi, saye berdoa kepada-Nya, kuatkan hati saya, lembutkan hati saya untuk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik...untuk lebih mudah menerima nasihat...untuk lebih mudah mengatasi semua kesilapan saya selama ini...Ya, saya sudah lupakan-Nya...selama ini...

Dugaan saya makin hebat...Mungkin ini juga peluang saya untuk mencari diri saye yg sebenar...merungkai erti hidup saye di sini..bukan sekadar utk berseronok dlm jangka masa pendek...

Kita berbeza....ya, mungkin...tp x mustahil untuk kite pecahkan halangan di antara kite kan?

Ape pun, saye wish awk bahagia juga dlm hidup awk...saye respek ape saje keputusan awk..saye cube terima kesilapan saya... ;)

Crap N Crab X Sama, Crab Lg Sedap...

Aku wonder.
Whether aku ni born creative or saje2 buat konon diri ni creative, padahal sbnrnye 'x suke berada dalam keadaan normal'....

Oh well...the thing is this...
So yesterday, I figured that I TOTALLY hate office works, cuz they're rigid, too much formality, n I REALLY2 hate making formal phone calls...

*sounding very da very like a rebelllious 13-year-old, no?*

But then, it dawned on me, 'kalau sume bende kau x suke, kt mane2 ko keje pn same je Jah'

*eh, bile mase name aku Jah..euww~*

OK, the thing is, I THINK i'm this suke-break-away-from-the-norm kinda person, hence I claim myself as a 'creative' person...

Been searching for unis n colleges that offer multimedia courses (part of my assignment), came upon various creative unis n colleges like The One Academy, Lim Kok Wing (oh wow, sgt respek) n GO Academy..all i cud say is, "now THESE r creative ppl....me? i'm juz a slacker yg suke crk psl n blame org len bile aku slh..sad to say, but it cud be true.." ;(

And I even made my mum terguris hati by claiming I had done too much...I forgot what it's like to be a prodigal daughter anymore...i reckon it's bcos I am too pampered...that I actually need to get out more, but I'm stuck in "normalities".

Oh well....guess I still got a LOOOOOOONGGG way to go... *n hating it* haha... (tired laugh)

And U Wonder Why U Still Can't Drive A Stick Shift (kete manual la tu)

Not that it's threatening me or whatever..OK i lied a bit...Well, only a bit...
U have full control of it...
U cuai, u yg accident...
Drive at your own risk..
So pagi tadi pemanduan adalah sgt fail mcm bru bwk...sindrom da-berbulan-x-bwk..
It's typical...for me, at least...dunno bout others, but I think the same goes to evrybody else..
Sape yg xleh bwk auto? Bdk bru abes driving skool pn leh bwk auto...jgn kn bru dpt lesen, tp bru blaja sal tatatertib driving kt jalan pn leh bwk da...

At least that's what I want to think..

I tend to think of myself as the biggest loser if I can't drive a stick-shift jus like evrybody else...juz like my sister, who's only 2 years my junior n is given the trust by my mom..
Me? Nah, I'm juz the sit-at-home-big-sis...who can't drive a stick shift..
But know what, I'm gonna take over u, stick shift...oh yes, I will...
Org len sibuk bwk auto je kn? I KNOW i can drive an auto car, but rite now, xde auto car yg available at my house for me to try...ade yg manual je...n mom doesn't trust me to drive it..but i wanna drive..manual pn manual la...
walaupun pemanduan mcm taik pg td, i'll strive..strive to be an excellent driver better than my sis one day..i'm not a loser..
"knape sibuk bwk manual? x bwk auto je?"
--- SKILL! SKILL!

SKILL, you motherfucker...skill!

Current Covet - Extended!

Tudung Ekin...n tudung2 yg pasang siap yg senang untuk didapati di kedai2 berhampiran anda...yakni (setelah men-yurvey baaaaaanyak kedai2 tdg di sekitar Mesia) Tudung Sarimah, Tudung Dubai, Tudung Siti....err, n more to come...sheesh, they're driving me crazy!!

Tudung Sarimah

Tudung Dubai (cantik lak model nih)

Nila Tudung Siti a.k.a. Mak Iti a.k.a Mrs Dato' K tuh... (dan no 4 di dlm gmbr adalah tidak kene mengene)

Urgh~ tudung, sungguh ku xsangka kuasamu yg mampu membuatku teruja setiap kali melihatmu...kemunculanmu mampu juga menggodaku untuk melaburkan uang hingga berpuluh-puluh ringgit hendaknya...hanya untuk memilikimu...

Aku mau engkau! Aku mau engkau! Aku mau engkau!

"Ibu, nak tudung tu...bg akak RM10 pn xpe, nk yg tu jgk..sng pkai...nak bli yg kaler itam, aritu da bli kaler coklat..." "Aaaaa...tudung...argh! cantik gile, geram giler......"

Ibu : Dah jgn bazir duit, xkn nk bli setiap kaler utk setiap baju?"

"Yela, mslhnye aritu bli yg itam rosak plak..skg nk kne bli baru la...kaler itam..aaaa, lps ni akak x bli lg..bli itam ek.." (heheh...yela tu... -_-" cmnilah kalau da fashionista sgt - or fashion victim?)

Ntah la, tp I think, whoever invented these kind of tudung is pure genius..memenuhi kriteria pemakaian tudung yg kemas, mudah, trendy n hot yaw~ cume satu je drawback tudung2 cenggini... KENE BASUH PAKAI TANGAN KALO X, ROSAKKKK!!

Eh xpela, ala, pikir la sbg investment kan..bli cantek2, kne la jaga ngn rapi jgk..aku xkisah nk bsuh pkai tgn, kalao bleh aku nk sediakan wardrobe khas utk tudung ni je *GASP!* Berangan.

Aku plg ske tudung Ekin/psg siap ni sbb, aku xkn lg hadapi mslh2 berikut bile pkai tdg jenis lain seperti :

1) Tudung Bawal biase
Kemungkinan untuk nmpk x vogue gara2 tudung ditiup angin adalah amat tinggi..... seperti gmbr di bwh ini..ahh, sumpah aku benci angin bila kt kepala ade pkai tudung bwl ni...sbb bile ditiup, kne adjust2 n sgt x selesa okay.. (haih, angin plak yg disalahkan) -_-"



2) Tudung corak sifon
Kain die cantik mmg cantik, tp bile pkai, amatlah pyh nk membentuk tudung tu supaya nmpk cntik dan "bulat"/"tajam" di bhgn dahi itu...x mcm tdg bawal...so, utk mengelak kejadian tdk diingini tersebut, maka mmg kne iron lah tdg ini sblm dipakai supaya tdg x nmpk herot...tp mslhnye, aku nih malas nk iron! ape kes?

Ni gambo time ade trip ke MSN Bukit Jalil, sebelah i r my coursem8s..n pose i mcm pemandu pelancong gitu cuz nk cram 3 org dlm 1 shot nye pasal..huhu...anyway, tudung mereka kemas sahaja.. -_-" haih~

3) Selendang
Memule mcm 'sigh of relief' utk tdg2 seperti di atas, sbb die krg pkai pin, then nk adjust pn x ssh, hatta XYAH IRON!...tp MASAELAH nye plak, satu: aku x rase muke aku ni plg sesuai nk pkai tdg cmni, cos aku sgt tembam..then, ciri2 menutup aurat pada selendang ini agak....minima la kn...sbb, kdg2 selendang ni jarang, nmpk telinga sume...huu~ next one is : ade certain selendang aku MEMANG X RETI NAK PAKAI! and aku x nmpk cntk memakainye x mcm sesetgh org! boo hoo~ :-/

Kesilapan dlm gmbr : Jgn pkai selendang ni dgn anak tdg berpengeras! Jgn sekali2! X lawo, dik! Horror...

Tp bile aku pkai tudung psg siap ni, muke aku jd cm cantek (ehem2) n tdg sgt kemas..huhuhueehehe~ (maafkan keterujaan melampau ini)

Malam Pra-Graduan, okay? (n bleh rujuk post 'Malam Pra Graduan' juga utk maklumat lebih lanjut.... tp tetibe rase pelik, nape la aku x ltk gambo nih kt post tuh? *curious2*)

Ni ade post dlm post 'Kawen Kawen 2', okay~ time sedare kawen..

So, all in all..nak bli :
- Tudung Ekin (x kire yg plain atau corak, kain cotton/jersey)
- Tudung Sarimah (yg corak2...n oh yeah, plain pya skg da mule jual...the least dpt rm20 *WOOT!*
- Tudung Dubai OMG! OMG! sgt classy okay~ nk bli kaler len lg......!!!
-Tudung CT juga! Nak sgt pkai time ade function2 or event2... Daaa Darlings!


p/s : Check duit jap..err, yang.... de duit x? nk bli tudung..

Rant 2

Nak dekat pukul 9 lobih tadi sempat tgk High School Musical 2 kt channel Disney, courtesy of my lil bro...well, mmg kiddies sket r kn tgk cite2 cmni, tp...aku ske lagu die doh! For example, lagu 'Gotta Go My Own Way', 'Everyday'...n mcm2 lg..u cud juz sing along to it n don't care about the world..amidst all this indie songs yg aku ssh sket nk register, well, honestly speaking...

So I grew up listening to sugary-sweet pop stuffs..Aku x se-cool org len yg dgr lgu2 bwh tanah..Is that a problem?

Hehe..(amboi, grg nmpk.. ;p)

Anyways, aku slalu rase Vanessa Hudgens has a smokin' body...well, in terms of general beauty la...I say Megan Fox is WAAAYYYYY hotter, but..that's for the more adult department..huhu...no, I'm not turning into a lesbo yet...Lulz!! Gasp!

Anywayz again, moving on.....actually skg mmg tgh berusaha gile nk slimkan bdn ini...i know i don deserve the current body I'm in rite now..I used to be slimmer until form 3..I deserve that body!!!!

Tp kalau dh kt umah, mmg ssh r kn...dgn ibu yg suke masak lobih2 disbbkn kasih sygknye kt anak2 die -_-" (sumpah aku da byk kali suh mak aku krgkn masak, xyah msk lebih2, tp cmtuuuu jgk..haih~) eh, tp x jgk..ade masenye aku yg gagal kwl diri...uhuk2~

Lagi nk ckp pe? Oh yeah, aku de bace dlm paper arini, Jessica Biel ckp die rase her good looks has somehow caused her probs in acting cuz pengraha2 filem r like overlooking "meatier" roles for her juz cuz "she's pretty.." well, actually, maybe what it means is that her looks may suit other not-very-serious roles, instead of roles yg slalu dibagi kt ScarJo and Natalie Portman...huhu..

Well, I dont gawk at her statement..i mean, i may have that kind of syndrome too...maybe certain org akn be like ,"hek eleh, muke da cantik pn xreti nk bersyukur"..but no, i think, sum gud things in life may be a curse to u...me, for example, i don like the way how my look also sorta like interpret to ppl that "i'm nice.." nice yg stok pijak semut x mati punya..padahalll...

kau knl aku x? I'm the opposite of NICE...but, xla teruk mcm ske berparti liar/merokok/spread 3gp vids (!) etc...gilo apo...no, juz dat, knape la certain org ske pndg aku cm bek gile, mcm malaikat sgt r...n seolah2 mcm la aku ni ssh nk dibygkn bising/loud/or even sebut pkataan ktor sket...oh well, maybe juz cuz i'm surrounded by org yg xtau judge org len...yes.. ;) that's it..