Aku Mahu Saiz S! Urghhh!

This is what I've found in a bookstore last week....a chicklit novel...in BM...(wow! chicklit? BM some more? Wah, new concept meh...Aku selame ni bace chicklit omputih jela kan, tp..dek disebabkan tajuk novel ini ("Aku Mahu Saiz S") yg sgt catchy ok, dan2 lemak2 plak maseh melekat di badan ini cenggini ekoran diet yg tidak strict, makanya..... "ibu, akak nk beli buku ni!" (k la, actually saje je nk try test beli chicklit BM..haha...blagak gile kn ayat?)

"Aku nmpk gemuk x?" Urgh! Sgt geli tgk gmbr ni, mcm mak org...i knew i shudn't be wearing this dress! Or be this big!

"Aku Mahu Saiz S" daripada Ain Maisara...bagus jugak penulisan die ni...bleh thn la komersial die...n u guyz know what, buku ni sebenarnye ditujukan kepada remaja....HOH! kantoi2...lari...~~
(cos nak bace camne nk jadi saiz S punya pasal, amek ko..aku yg dah umo 20an ni pon sambar buku ni...seb bek RM16 je..huhu)

Beli lah buku2 keluaran PTS One...fresh dan yg plg penting, berbaloi2..huhu..sempat plak jd promoter x bergaji sini (ayat lame..haha) this is their website, by the way....i'm not sure if they also publish book for a maturer audience, but...i think what PTS One had done is a very good start to the local publication industry..hehe... ~

Pelakon Air Mata Yet Again..

Iklan : Lepas ni...kene bwat phone call lagi...hurm....Prestasi aku di tempat keje mcm makin merosot..

Semalam..
I found out that I am actually able to be a 'pelakon air mata' spontan...
I was able to say serious things when in my heart, I'm a kiddie...
When I'm confronted with that matter..

You said you have lost the battle..I said 'no, let's move on...masa kita panjang lagi...byk perlu ditempuhi...jgn tamatkan zaman muda ni begitu cpt dan putus asa..'

*is that how I say it? ohh, but..anggap la lbh krg kn...anyho, that IS what I want to say..*

Ahhhh.......
Sangat la x pandai bermadah2 pujangga mcm ni kan...tapi...I have to let it all out..

Runsing skg...mcm2 hal blaku...keje...die...uh!

Tgk flash mob zombie pun lagi seronok la!

Hope kite x runsing sgt, ok...bahaya utk kesihatan... ingat Tuhan byk2...Dia Maha Penyayang...~

Gemuknya Aku... Ya Allah!!

Hari ni, 2x tuka baju sebelum g opis... memule kai cardigan, tp singkat n nmpk butt, then tuka baju kurta (mcm bju labuh yg indians slalu pkai) itam, tp die fit n nmpk seksi..x proper la kan...dah la bum besa...so tuka..last2 pkai cardigan putih yg pjg sket n x ktt kt perut..

Bleh je nk pkai baju kurung, senang, tutup aurat satu, lg satu nmpk r sopan sket... n xla menonjol sgt drpd staf2 opis len yg kebyknnye kai bju kurung...kalau kai sua pun, dorg kai dgn bju kemeja opis/company....uhuk~

Sbb aku ni natural-born fashionista, aku mmg ske menongkah arus sket dlm bab pemakaian ni...aku gak byk dipengaruhi oleh majalah2 cm cleo, teen vogue, yg bile jumpe artikel sal office wear, aku lbh teruja tgk style2 blaus, pdn dgn sua slek yg mcm mane, lg kalau leh pkai ngn skirt labuh, nk pkai mcm mane...kaler ape yg sesuai utk opis sume...kureng sket ngn idea pakai bju kurung tiap2 ari ni..kt U dlu pn, seboleh2nye aku nk pkai sua...tp kalau btol2 perlu kai sumting decent utk menutup 'keseksian' di bhg2 tertentu...aku akur....ya lah, bkn rugi ape pn kn...huhu...nk g blaja je pn...bt then, i oso believe in looking good while ur studying/taking notes and all...i akn jd bersemangat sket pastu...u look good, u feel good...anyway, not that aku membenci sgt bju kurung...dlm seminggu plg2 aku pkai 2x r kn...kt U n kt opis skg...

nk je pkai skirt, last time pkai skirt ngn kemeja time matrik dlu je..skg nk pkai, tula...if only my bottom is not so 'prosperous'...leh r aku nk pkai skirt2 labuh itu...atau sua slek yg saiz mmg utk aku...ni kalau saiz 36 pn da ktt, cmne bai? aku ni pear-shape rupenye kot eh..gemuk dr tummy ke bwh...kt situuuuuu jgk lemak2 nk berkumpul kn...kt perut pun die ske je nk hinggap...kalau aku pakai kain guni itam kt bwh kn, pastu duduk kt meja, org bleh tertipu gak tgk aku igtkan kurus slim, rupenye, bile aku jln, arrgh! mcm patung marishka dr rusia ni...

Eh, ni gemuk btol chubby dr muke ni! Ahh, lantak la..get my point, rite? Huhu...

pastu lemak tu ske duduk lame2 kt prot ni...aku da try get rid (exercise) pn die degil jgk nk duduk situ..seolah2 mcm nk ckp yg aku ni da mmg ditakdirkan utk boncit n ber-bum besa mcm mak org anak 4... -_-"*sedih* mak org anak 5 pn, ntah2 x besa cm aku...

ok la...losing weight is NOT an easy feat. heh, utk seseorg yg follow 'Biggest Loser' sampai season 4.... emmm...should not be...sbb dlm cite tu, org yg 400 paun pn leh trn sampai 200 paun, ni kan pulak aku yg cume 100++ paun ni...

aku rase lemak bdn aku ni jns yg degil r... (surrender)

x pun sbb brt tulang je kot..eheh ....eheh... (gelak nervous)

x pun, emmmmm...maybe org yg brt 300++ paun tu sng trn sbb dorg brt lemak kot...aku ni maybe brt muscle je kot.. (dah berat muscle pulak? mcm2 la bdk ni kn..)

tp...aku bkn xpnh exercise and eat right...it's just that....i dunno...it didn't work...die dah nk work pn, there r too many temptations at home...mcm pg ni, da elok2 aku tgk bdn aku kt cermin, flab kt perot tu mcm nk susut...aku bkk tdg saji tgk breakfast ade pe....slalunye roti bkr je mak bwat kan...skali......NASI LEMAK mak bwat!!! Arrgghhhh!!! Tidak! Nasik lemak mak aku mmg la sdp..kalau beli kt org punya yg aku liat nk mkn...tp ni,,,mak punya....

owh, shit ,man..shit, shit...kalau x mkn ari ni, bile lg mak akn bwat kn....

so ambik la...nasik nye..emm, rasenye nasik separuh je....tp pas mkn da mule rase bersalah...knp la x terpikir nk bungkus je nsk tu utk mkn time lunch nnt kn? da la plan xnk trn kafe arinin cos tkt abg kafe tu tgk aku ni pelik cos bdn mcm mak org....argh!! ahhh!! budus2!

pedas oo nsk lemak pg ni.....fuhh! mak pkai cili kering ni! xpela..tetibe ade mentol berbunyi 'ting' kt kepala..."kalau mkn pds pagi2, pastu kt opis kang kunyah cereal sket utk cepatkan penghadaman, sure akan bernyahtinja pagi ni..." yes! mknn menggemukan itu akn kua blk! huhu...n tetibe gak tingat org2 bulimia...tp, tu len...dorg pakse mknn kua kn..then ikut mulut...plan aku ni....x...hehehe~ eh lg pn aku x ske muntah2 do...pnat ooo..

ok...cubaan hari kedua post-menstruation days utk menurunkan berat bdn...haih..ntah la...aku kt U dlu, xnah exercise pn tetiap ari dgn tekun, mkn 3 kali sehari cm bese, leh je kurus...ni kt umh, diet n exercise mcm nk gile pn, bleh plak nk bertmbh brt bdn tu....ape kes? mmg kene pose kot? n lidah ni kne thn dr bernafsu nk mkn sdp2 kot... ;(

Cat Lovers Only!!

Cats...to me, they sure are God's cutest, most adorable, most pleasant, sometimes naughty creatures that I love... ;) Yes, for pets, we have hamsters, rabbits, fish, even iguanas and sugar gliders, but cats...they r juz so magical..n somewhat human-like, cuz they are so manja, n r constantly meowing, n those meows r like they're communicating with humans..hahah! ok, dogs do that too, but since we can't bela dogs, then i'll opt for cats...hey, even if we CAN keep dogs as our pets, i think cats are way cuter n cleaner..cats are also the ones I look for when I'm blue, or when I'm plain bored..tee hee..

Now, cats around my neighbourhood just love to come to our house, we really don't mind, we r happier cuz we get to pet these adorable creatures for free... ;p it's like, we don have to spend any money just to get a Persian cat like this, for instance... (he's my next door neighbour's cat! ;p)

(And I have already reposted this pic! Ah hah, nvr mind.. ;p)

This is a 'mama cat'...tee hee..she's always asking for food from us, n later she frequented our place till the day she gave birth to her suffocatingly cute kitties! :-) (like what I wrote in the above link, brp kali mau bgtau da.. -_-")

Mama cat yang sgt bersih, slim, serius, dan x malu meminta makanan.. "Saye kucing yg susah, kais pagi mkn pagi, xdpt tikus sekor pun, umah ni bersih sgt... eh.. "

Her kitties, considering that they were born quietly in a dark and hapak store room, turned out surprisingly healthy n clean, with no birth defect whatsoever...their plus point is that they're more independent...n fierce!!! huhu..cuz since born, x pnh dpt belaian manja dr manusia-gila-kucing cm me n my siblings, so..heheh...now la kite kne manjekan dorg kn? tee hee..

Awww....this is a pic of the happy family a few weeks later... ;) can get used to us already..

Now the kittens have grown bigger n cuter.. ;) (n the mama left our home already, oh well..maybe nature made her leave as soon as her kitties have grown.. ;( we'll miss u, mama cat)

Wah! Kacak bergaye lah die...(this is the 'abang', haha) ;-o nak posing utk kempen 'love our nature' ke? hehe..

Meanwhile, these are their 'friends' who datang melawat sekali sekala..kdg2 tiap2 ari.. ;p

The black-n-white-tompok2 cat...sooo manja...neighbour's beautiful cat..

Ha, jemput2...~ tambahan 2 lg visitor - the orange kitty who came with her mama yg warne bdn same mcm 'mama cat', cume kakinye ade stokin putih..huhu..

"Da mkn, kite ngular jap ye kwn2"...(owh, 2nd from right is the twin of the black-n-white cat..huhu..equally manja.. ;))


Told ya, si 'abang' ni mmg pndai bergaye..haha...skg ni gaye terpeleot plak.. ;p

mao...mao.... (jumpe lagi!)

Sempena Pemansuhan PPSMI....

Skg keje aku kt opis adalah untuk menge-col (perosak bahasa btol!) uni2 n colleges tempatan yang ade offer multimedia courses for students, specifically sbb kitorang nk g melawat these unis n colleges nanti..Since most unis n colleges yg I know are very specialized in those courses, like LKW, KDU, SEGi, GO Academy sume..mmg aku speaking r kn ngn org2 dorg..huhu..

Tp arini, perbualan antara aku dan akak registrar di sebuah universiti local terkenal..n not a private institution like mentioned above...

Aku : Ya, saya Sarah dari Syarikat SOS. Kami adalah sebuah syarikat .....(some company profile summary bla3) dan kami berminat untuk membuat lawatan ke institusi2 tempatan, seperti institusi ini ya...(gelak manje ala2 profesional sket)..kami.....(tetibe, mcm biase, suke nk pause sambil berkate 'umm'..'umm')...err, jadi ini sebuah fakulti ye?

Cik Manis di talian : Err, ini Centre..

Aku : (ok, whatever..) OK, centre ya...ok, tapi ada disediakan kursus multimedia kan? Do you...(terkeluar tetibe BI)

Cik : Ya...emm, tapi kami...well, we only offer courses for Masters and PhDs only..

Aku : ohh...i see...ok then, thank you!

Haha! Actually I knew memang agak kekok nk ckp BM sket punya formal cmtu..lagi2 institusi (diulang - INS-TI-TU-SI) tempatan yg mostly staf die ckp BM...but akak registrar tu actually non-malay, aku tau da..saje nk test skil ckp BM formal..wakakaka...FAIL!

Sedikit Kata2 Untuk Awak....

Saye selalu pelik dgn awk...

Pada saye,
Awk selalu merendah diri...berfikir itu dan ini...padahal tiada ape yg ptt awk fikirkan utk merendahkan lagi self-esteem awk...

Kenape? Lupekan saje lah past awk...awk buat mcm yg saye buat..saye dah lupe diri saye yg dulu..dan skrg saye happy...well, xla sgt...tp i do feel better..

Kenape awk slalu ckp bnde yg same? Seolah2 awk suke hidup in the past...no, u must live in the present...kalau past awk tu gloomy, that is...u hv to erase it jauh2..

Hari ni, fikiran saye masih post-keruan-x-keruan...lebih absent minded dr biase...sy melintas jalan pagi tadi buat pertame kalinye saye x pndg kiri kanan...ibu dah menjerit 'Lori!' sebab ade lori dtg ke arah kanan saye dan saye lupe toleh...cume beberapa inci saje dari saye, lori itu...awk tau, adik kecik saye ade skali dgn saye mase tu....SANGAT bahaya..

Alhamdulillah, Allah masih sygkan saye...saye sendiri xtau kenape saye jadi sampai mcm itu...
Kerane saye teringatkan awk, fikirkan ttg awk...saye x tenang...

Saye ade mslh lain jgk, tp bile masalah saye dgn awk wujud je, tibe2 masalah2 lain jd lbh besar..

Tapi, saye berdoa kepada-Nya, kuatkan hati saya, lembutkan hati saya untuk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik...untuk lebih mudah menerima nasihat...untuk lebih mudah mengatasi semua kesilapan saya selama ini...Ya, saya sudah lupakan-Nya...selama ini...

Dugaan saya makin hebat...Mungkin ini juga peluang saya untuk mencari diri saye yg sebenar...merungkai erti hidup saye di sini..bukan sekadar utk berseronok dlm jangka masa pendek...

Kita berbeza....ya, mungkin...tp x mustahil untuk kite pecahkan halangan di antara kite kan?

Ape pun, saye wish awk bahagia juga dlm hidup awk...saye respek ape saje keputusan awk..saye cube terima kesilapan saya... ;)

A Little Thought....

People say,

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

and

"You don't know what you've got till it's gone"

So,
Love what/who you have today while they're still present...Do not wait until they're gone from ur life forever...Appreciate them now....

The Demons In Us...

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about sum serious matters...

Love....
Loyalty...
Trust...
Deception....

Even Life and Death...the two determiners in our lives on this precious Earth...our temporary lives...

Are my good deeds enuf to make me an eligible Heaven resident? I've sinned a lot...N in the beautiful religion, u being a 'nice' person does not count as being a faithful believer...U have to really take care of your words, thoughts n all...they must b pure..

I really2 forgot how to revert to my old innocent self back...naive, hardworking, honest, demure...Now it's all gone...It's all gone...

I've wronged so many people....

Crap N Crab X Sama, Crab Lg Sedap...

Aku wonder.
Whether aku ni born creative or saje2 buat konon diri ni creative, padahal sbnrnye 'x suke berada dalam keadaan normal'....

Oh well...the thing is this...
So yesterday, I figured that I TOTALLY hate office works, cuz they're rigid, too much formality, n I REALLY2 hate making formal phone calls...

*sounding very da very like a rebelllious 13-year-old, no?*

But then, it dawned on me, 'kalau sume bende kau x suke, kt mane2 ko keje pn same je Jah'

*eh, bile mase name aku Jah..euww~*

OK, the thing is, I THINK i'm this suke-break-away-from-the-norm kinda person, hence I claim myself as a 'creative' person...

Been searching for unis n colleges that offer multimedia courses (part of my assignment), came upon various creative unis n colleges like The One Academy, Lim Kok Wing (oh wow, sgt respek) n GO Academy..all i cud say is, "now THESE r creative ppl....me? i'm juz a slacker yg suke crk psl n blame org len bile aku slh..sad to say, but it cud be true.." ;(

And I even made my mum terguris hati by claiming I had done too much...I forgot what it's like to be a prodigal daughter anymore...i reckon it's bcos I am too pampered...that I actually need to get out more, but I'm stuck in "normalities".

Oh well....guess I still got a LOOOOOOONGGG way to go... *n hating it* haha... (tired laugh)

Perihal Kerja

Yeay, aku da stat keje arini...emm, not very excited actually, tp bile memikirkan SALARY yg bkl dipegang sendiri tiap2 bulan mulai skrg... -_-"

Hehe, newayz, yeah, bagos la da stat keje kn...dpt timba pengalaman..xdela melangut kt umah ngabehkan boreh mak bapak yo..huhu...walaopon beras harus dikurangkan pengambilannye skrg ekoran bdn yg makin 'sihat'.... *sigh*

Ok, bile da stat keje ni mst tensen2 kn? i mean, xla setenang perasaan bile dok umh kn..huhu...kne keja deadline, wat tu, wat ni..huhu...so, ekoran (ekoran lg) ketensenan itu, mungkin brt brdn juga boleh trn? mgkin double penurunannye? ahaks~ i wish.....~

ok, so keje kali ni, unlike mase prak dlu, mcm agak exciting sket, ahaks...hope dpt melalui hari2 yg mendtg dgn jayanya...

Peace. Kene stat wat assignment skg..