10 Questions In My Head~

These questions fill up my mind lately :

1) At what age will I get married?

2) Is he going to accept me?

3) Could it be possible that my Mr Right be the person I've known all this while?

4) When will I get my own freedom?

5) Will I be a good wife & mother?

6) Will I E.V.E.R...get a nice dashboard tummy like those Hollywood celebs on a normal not-working-out-day? Tee hee. (I've fukin tried so many things to get it flat yo...but somehow it juz didn't work...it's like my tummy's been cursed to bloat like hell 4 the rest of my life!) ;)

7) Is birth process gonna be painful...well...4 me? o.0

8) Am I gonna have a happy, long-lasting marriage? (I'm so afraid of marriage when I read about all these unhappy news about marriage life) :-S

9) Urm....will I ever get my dream man to be my Mr Right?

10) Will I get to travel overseas, to my dream place like LA, England and France? Haha. Nope, I'm serious.

Bile da moody sbb demam, jgn g opis ok..

So today, I went to the office as usual....yesterday was down with fever...so..

Pagi tadi mmg sedikit moody, sebab rase mcm demam x demam, tapi sbb tau bos mmg xkn paham, so gigihkan jugak dtg keje walaupun org len da mcm 'apebende la nk g opis gak time demam2...MC suda'

Well, people juz won't understand, that's how I put it..But I admit, it kinda sucked. I mean, bos x send byk sgt emel pun tadi...oh but still, sape yg nk wat keje2 tu sume kalo bukan aku kan?

Uhukhukh.....anyways, so pagi tadi nekad xnk stress myself out sgt...so adalah berharap ingin membuat kerja pd kadar yg ringan sahaja...xmo stress2 ok... (hikhik, da mcm pesakit jantung kronik, xleh stress2..ops~)

Duduk3, then, tetibe ter-stress, tp bkn sbb keje, but rather, dgn kerenah colleague...not a big deal really, but rather... cuz it's about people being so meek they couldn't stand up 4 themselves and let others trample them..see, this is y i hate being in the malay clan...we ppl tend to shut our real feelings and instead we r more comfy to go with the flow, eventho' we despise it so much...i, for one, sometimes i do pretend as well, but i can't assure that i pretend 100%.there MUST be at least a 90% chance that I'll show my dislikeness towards something..

A few hours after, I decided to go downstairs to ask for a favor from this akak....went there at about 3 pm ke atas, time org bru2 pas mkn sume kan....bos pn outta sight (but still alive n kickin' in email)...so I decided, y wait? settle all ur kerja la kan...

Lepak punya lepak ngn akak tu, I pn nk blk da...there's this receptionist gurl kt this level yg...well, she used to go to the same skool as I am, only thing is, we all xla rapat sgt..but then when 1 day I realized that fact, we talked for awhile n added her in fb n vice versa la...I notice that she never commented me or what not..not that I care, like, mcm..ok, fine...tp keje 1 building kot kan..at least pls be friendly....or maybe I was too polite to her, n it's not her way of socializing...anyways...

Bleh bygkan sum1 mulekan salam perkenalan dgn kau, bkn dgn 'hai, bz arini?', bkn dgn 'sarah! cuti weekend ni pegi mane?' dan juga bkn dgn, 'hai!' juzt a simple hi...no, kali ni salam perkenalan dibuat dgn 'nape dah gemuk ni u?'

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I've finally found what I can write about to update this green, unpopular blog of mine - that is...to write about..wait for it...Puasa! @ Fasting!

Yes folks, it's 20 Ramadhan already and now only I've decided to write a post about fasting!

(pic courtesy of www.deqwan.wordpress.com)

Haha, well, that just shows...

Well, this year's Ramadhan, to me, is, well...60% work and 40% Ramadhan...or it might be 70% work & 30% Ramadhan..mm hmm..no doubt about that..

But it doesn't mean that I don't fast or perform the terawih, it's just that, well...work has been very busy since July 2010, up till August, so there you have it..my bosses pulak sibuk nak pegi obersea bulan 10...so yeah, I'm bajeting, I'll be busy3 till after Raya. Ahh, work~

But there's a silver lining to it.. I mean, yeah, when ur busy as hell during the day, I don't feel at all hungry.. Cus even during non-fasting months, I usually have to skip lunch cuz work are just aplenty.. (well, sometimes I really wanna diet..haha) So..it makes no difference to me then.. Just that, when I'm working during the fasting month, I make a pledge to myself not to conduct any negative behaviour (gossiping, thinking about negative things, scheming a plot bla3...)

But then again, like I said, I tried.. I guess old habits just die fast...or that everyone around me is not helping..haha..whatever...there I go, rambling as usual...

During Ramadhan, I do have some preferences on certain things like bersahur & berbuka.. During sahur time, well, actually, I prefer not to sahur, actually, cuz it will bring some nauseatic sensation in my mouth after I wake up during the morning.. (and yes, I DID brush my teeth before dozing off to sleep after the Subuh prayer!) and that nauseatic feeling just...made me hungry, actually...

Also, in the first 2-3 days of fasting (and sahuring), my tummy sort of like getting used to it, in a way, it will flush out all what I've eaten during sahur in the morning...ahahaha~ oh God...so that's y I said, it's better for me not to sahur..

When I don't sahur, I won't feel nauseatic, thus I wont feel like chewing on a gum or suck a Hacks sweet...huhu..I've tried to NOT SLEEP AFTER SAHUR, but to no avail...This year also, my biology clock just gone haywire...Oh yeah, that actually stirred an inner 'angel' in me, saying, 'Sarah, kau tu yg pegi tido lambat2 tgh mlm sape suruh? On9 je keje...manenye x bangun sahuri mengantuk, pastu tdo blk..huh!' Pang! Kene pelempang sedas kt kepala..hehe~

Hehe, chill , people, I know sahur is a sunnah and digalakkan and all, but...heh...I dont think I'm a sahur person..provided yg I x tdo blk after sahur, yeap, maybe I can live with that, but for now..emm, cmtu jela..hehe...and my tummy will keep on excreting the sahur meals when I wake up in the morning... -_-"

Anyhow, we move on to berbuka punya story...see, on bazaars, I really am not keen on the idea of sellers opening up their stalls as early as 3 pm...heck, I'm no seller myself, but...come on, if the usual pasar malam can open at about 5 pm during non-fasting months, y do they opening up sooo early as 3 pm during fasting months, right? I mean, it's not even good since it will encourage ppl to look at food, during the day..and 3 pm to me is like, ''2 hrs after lunchtime for non-fasting ppl'..it's like, too soon!

Huhu..anyways, not that I have a thing against the sellers so much..so, moving on, I also usually prefer to there around 5 pm above..it's even better if I go there at 6 pm..why? Because, I love to not have to wait for soo long to berbuka as soon as I got home and unpack all those delicious food..huhuhu~

Then, it always makes me wonder, usually these bazaar sellers will sell almost similar items with the stalls next to them... I know it's their business to sell whatever they want, but , I cant help but wonder, 'boleh habis ke sume tu? and bile x abes, dorg buang ke sume makanan2 tu? hmm'

Also, i like to wonder 'boleh ke peniaga2 ni sume tahan lapar / dahaga time jual makanan2/air2 ais ni sume?' haha~

And (ade lagi!)...I notice there will also be some menus yg tetibe ade, tp time bukan bulan pose xde...like, puding karamel, ayam percik, then...tetibe mcm grand gle sume..padehal, buke dlm mase 10 minit, pastu g traweh, wat 8 rakaat pn, time blk mst da pnat n xleh mkn lg..haha~

The thing abt this sudden menus is...bukan ape, it makes me wonder, like, puding karamel, does it carry this theory among sellers like this, 'sbb bulan puasa kte xcukup karbo n sugar, then we'll replace it with the uber-sweet caramel?'

Haha, hey, I love caramels, bt I believe, kurma is the best to replace all the loss carbs during the day...no need for man-made food like caramels la, ayam percik la...bwat lg tmbh kgs lg ade..huu~

But, i dont know abt u, but that's what i think la kn..hmm, nak g sambung makan murtabak cos mlm ni x g traweh..ehe~

Of Trust, Hope & Love

Hope

Sometimes when we put our hopes too high, just be aware that...do not put it too high...or else when u can't achieve it, u'll fall..

Hope applies to almost evrything in our life, in friendship, in love..family..we humans are social animals...we need sum1 in our lives...some ppl may saythat they are content in living in solidarity...but no..they're in denial (or so i thought)..deep in their heart / soul / mind, surely they long to share their bits of lives with sum1..at least 1 person..or an animal...to share with...

In fostering a friendship, a normal human being has the feeling to belong..they want to be accepted..by a clique, group, a friend, whatever..thus they'll make anything to get what they want - to be accepted...just...anything...i dunno...do some wild things ur friend told u too...or just simply by smiling n saying 'hello'...then, bam...we have welcomed a stranger into our life - a once-stranger, to be transformed into what we call a friend..

In being in a relationship, we want to love and feel loved..thus... why are there so many "stupid love songs" and "stupid soap operas" keep airing and playing in the media, in our daily lives? kenape asek2 cinta kan? hmm...org yg xprnah bercinta secara serius xkan akui ini...they'll just brush it off n smirk..sambil nyanyi lagu 'aku xpercaya cinta'..hahaha..

oh well, the writer is also guitly of being 'that' kinda person once *wink2*.. but yeah, as I grew, and I gained some life experience, love, to me, is powerful...it can make or break us...'love feels like heaven but hurts like hell' (damn i totally dig this quote!)...

So normally, they say a girl is more needy than a boy...but...hmm...a boy usually makes the first move when they r interested in a girl...unless, in this modern age, the opposite will happen..but heck, i think guys still love it when they know that THEY are in charge...so yeah, to me, i prefer to keep it old-fashioned n let the guy makes the first move..

Hmm..but then, girls may be needy, but a guy's love is usually pure n serious (haha...but it might not apply to playboys n jerks.. ;p )... i mean, yeah, girls are needy, that sometimes, bile mamat kaya or pndai ngayat da ejas sket, mule cair da minah tu...balak lame tolak tepi..haha...kesian bf lame die...yeap, gurls r cruel..n this is the part where I said, ' a guy's love is more serious n pure'...


(hah! g matilah sarah! mane de..pempuan pn ade yg setia ape?)

hahah...yeah,. i admit...mmg ade je pempuan2 yg sanggup bengkak2 mate semate2 for a jerk they call their bf / syg / honey bunch whatsoever...but for what? they know they're being stupid, but ...yeah as i told u, love is powerful..bcos of love, one can go out of their mind..

so there...in a friendship, we strive to jaga our friends' heart..we tatang them like a minyak yg pnuh (sort of) n juz agrees with what they say / do...hey, we're buddies, right? n in a relationship, kite xnmpk ape cacat cela pn pasangan kte tu...as they say 'no one is perfect until we fall in love with them" (dang i like this quote too! ) ;p....we love them, put all our hearts in them..n before u know it...


Ur frend had been talking behind ur back..ur frend had been isolating u 4 no reason...ur frend is being dishonest with u...

or..

Ur date is no longer talking to u...he/she has someone else behind ur back..he/she is not what u expected him to be..he/she is juz using u...


That's what happens when we place our hopes too high on the people around us..when confrontations no longer solve the problem..sometimes the best way is juz too leave these ppl...eventhough we always hope that we cud juz start it all over again...

Rants

1) So today, I was criticized, it's regarding my work ethic. That I'm not being efficient enough, That I'm not organized enough. That I'm very bad at my time management skills. Oh, lemme check that again. So what are on my list currently? Oh yeah :
- To do a market research (estimated time to finish : 2-3 weeks, requirement : to sit in front of the laptop, making phone calls to the right person, bla3..taking notes, presenting a report or some sort)
- To look for accommodations for upcoming new staffs (from overrrrsea, uu....) - so haruslah cari rumah2 yg tip top, xmo la umah setinggan yg rm500 sebulan, kemas dan bersih tp KECIK tu kn..dorg nye standard mane la nak umh kecik2 ni, haruslah rumah yg beso2, plg2 koman rm1200 sebulan pn bleh lg...asalkan nmpk mhl...itulah die.. (estimated time to finish : a few weeks as well, provided that I have ample time to go out of the office ans scout around, making phone calls, n if I do, have to follow-up with the agent rumah, arranging time for my boss to go over there, then follow- up some more, then kalau dorg xske, oh ye, repeat step 1 again..) - and un-officially I'm also the 'ajen rumah' of my company
- To arrange for a VIP's upcoming visit around this month in terms of preparing the office deco (portrait of VIP, posters, layouts, printing bla3..) and guess what, I'm usually the person yg have to go outside to those print shops...
- AT the same time, upkeeping of office supplies and...
- Upkeeping of monthly payroll
- Taking care of MOST of the things at the office
- Oh yeah, not only handling the technical stuffs, but handling perangai2 n peel2 bosses n senior management yg mcm H.A.R.A.M.


I was the one who ran the office since the past year, underappreciated...And they're telling me how to do my work...

2) Men
- Just what is it with men who :
a) is curang, but xpandai cover line? masalahnye, in the end, we got scolded by their unknowing gf, yg konon2nye kte yg menggatal, padahal balak die sdri yg terhegeh2 kt kte...pastu bile kantoi, dgn ajaibnye mamat2 ni kecut egg n trus menghilang...c'mon, be a man!
b) who juz refuses to confront a problem by not communicating baik2 dgn his girl? i know it's nature's law, but at the time, it's bugging me...

Bersyukur (Part 1)....~

Aku benci time aku kat matrik dulu, ade sorang roommate aku, die ni bukan org Ipoh, die tempelak aku sebab time tu, selaku org Ipoh, aku xtau kt mane tmpt best nk jln2 kt Ipoh. Aku cume boleh suggest Jusco, Ipoh Parade, dan yg seangkatan dgnnye jela sbb pade aku, tmpt2 tu jela yg best.. Aku nk suggest Tmn Dr ke , taman polo ke...aku tkt die xske...Aku xsuke die sbb die kate "ape da..org Ipoh pn xtau mane nk g"

Tp skg aku bersyukur die tegur aku dgn cara brutal itu, sbb die buatkan aku gigih amek tau sal keadaan sekeliling hometown aku nih..skg, aku keje ngn bos2 dr KL n dr negara Arab.. multinational company beb..tugas aku xterhad kpd jadik executive, aku gak kne ala2 jd tourist guide dorg sbb yela kan, mane la dorg nk tau kt Ipoh ni tmpt mane best nk mkn...tmpt mane nk g bli brg sume..pendek kate, skg ni, Alhamdulillah, kire tmpt2 yg aku xpnh pasan wujud kt Ipoh ni, aku da tau akn kewujudan die (haha! org Ipoh yg teruk r aku ni.. ;p ape2 pun, aku syg Ipoh!)

Aku benci setiap kali mak aku larang aku ade boypren/bf. Paling koman skali, die suh aku "kawan aje" ngan mane2 dak laki yg aku minat n nk 'ngedate'. Aku slalu runsing n musykil, nape la susah sgt mak aku nak bagi aku ade bf. Bukannya aku nak kawen lari ke, nak kua malam ke, aku nak dating je. Tgk mak2 orang len OK je, cool..

Tp skrg aku bersyukur mak aku berkali2 suh aku 'kwn je dlu', sbb skg, aku rase aku lbh matang, aku dah tau ape beza suka, sayang, cinta, dan juga 'infatuation'..Aku xperlukan budak2 lelaki yg blum tentu boleh jaga aku bile kami da kawen nnt sbg peneman aku doplohpat jam. Aku xperlukan seseorang utk katakan aku cantik, hebat dll utk jadi pendorong aku setiap masa. Jodoh juga d tgn Tuhan, kdg2 Tuhan kenalkan kt kte org yg slh supaya kte akn lebih menghargai the next person yg sememangnye diciptakan utk kite. Yang sudah tertulis di Loh Mahfuz, bahawa dia adalah tuan kpd 'tulang rusuk'nya yg selama ini 'missing'... ;)

Aku benci time kt U dlu, asek dpt byk assignment yg boleh dikatakan 'boring' and 'repetitive' la..sbb kebanyakan assignment mmg kne byk menulis, berfikir, membaca, dan mcm nk jd ahli korporat..

Alhamdulillah..aku nk berterima kasih kpd lecturer2 yg da byk ajar aku dlu, sbb sume yg dorg ajar time kt U dlu, MEMANG SANGAT2 aku apply kt tmpt keje skg..keje aku 24-7 hectic..kdg2 bos nk surat ditulih, tinggal die nk sain..at least aku xperlu browse sample surat formal kt internet dlu sblm aku wat draf..n then, aku bersyukur jgk dlm kos aku, ade blajo 'intercultural relationship'...sbb skg, mmg kene sgt..aku keje ngn byk org2 luar mesia..mmg boleh apply ape yg aku blajo dlu..dlu aku xpcy..dlu aku anggap ape yg aku blajo dlm buku teks, xkn same ngn kehidupan sebenar.. ;)

Aku skrg benci gile ngn bos aku sbb die bkn saje tua, pelupa, kuat mrh, x efisien..(kutuk kutuk kutuk).. tiap2 ari sume staf mmg xsah kalo xsakit jiwa ngn die..

Tapi kan, mgkn 1 ari aku akn berterima kasih ngn die sbb kalo bkn sbb die is who she is now, mst aku n satf2 len xkn blajo cmne nk jd pekerja yg efisien..pekerja yg pndai keje ikut deadline , yg masih mampu tersenyum walaopun keje under a very2 stressful environment..

Atau mungkin gak akan dtg nnt, aku akn jmpe bos yg lg truk dr skg!Tp at least aku akn tau cmne nk handle die...err, asenye kot.. ;p hehe~

Moped...

Now, all was well yesterday.And the day after. I was feeling over the top, singing my heart out, until...tonight..

I just saw something ... which made me

1) sad, guilty, stupid

2) look stupid, angry, n just...irritated and annoyed

Man, weekend nights r supposed to be relaxing, but..heck, yeah, I KNOW it's only temporary..provided I only have 2 days of relaxing (which cud b freakin' short of a time!) then it's back to work again. Back to the old nagging boss who constantly forgets and then, xde keje len, menyergah org len sebelum tau asal usul cite. Nice.

I feel so down now that I cud relax to Westlife's rendering of 'I Wanna Grow Old With You'. ;(

Made me feel...I wanna be loved again. For someone to take care after me, know what's on my mind, know how to touch me...touch me inside... (now ni terpengaruh lagu jojo sebelum tu, 'how to touch a girl'..haih~) love me, above all...

I'm gonna feel so down tomorrow...dah la Isnin...

I'm a sensitive person. Aku ni kalau org kate sket, aku akn terase..dan ini bukan kate aku gemuk, or aku ckp byk ke ape...heck, aku laaagi suke bile org ckp aku ckp byk, instead of the other way around..

I just xsuke ..bile...I'm connected with all things dowdy n frumpy. Cos my life mmg da bosan, n then org nmpk aku cm bosan padehal aku bleh je msuk sume org..n they misjudge me.damn, i hate it when they misjudge me.

So, all in all...i just hope I'll still turn out OK tomorrow. Pls y'all, pray for me...

OK la.....

K la, k la..aku da mellow down sket skg...ttg pekerja 'bagus' itu... (let's just call him A)...aku maafkan la die...for now la..kang sok isnin aku masuk keje aku hangin lg ngn pangai lembap+bengap+slow die tu...

Aku bkn ape, nk ckp direct kt die kang die trase....yela, die pn lg tua dr aku..5 thn kot..da kwen sume...k la, aku anggap la die blk keje on time sbb die ade anak n istri...so 5.30 tu time utk die n family..k la, aku anggap la die ni jenis yg bersabar dan byk berdoa kpd tuhan spy dikurniakan kesabaran yg melampau..sbb tu bile bos wat taik kt sume staf, die masih mampu tersenyum puas dan bersyukur (gile sarcastic aku, tp aku ckp ni bersebab...korg kne phm situasi aku..)

Aku xmampu nk berkasar sgt dgn die time2 tu gak...susah r bile kne jage muke ni kn..k la, dan aku maffkan la die jgk sbb...sekurang2nye die puji name adik kecik aku sedap (hah? oh ye, aku pnah bwk adik kecik aku dtg opis dlu sbb time tu aku kelam kabut amek die kt skola tanpa kemas beg dlu)

K la, aku sabau jela.....aku akan cube fikirkan yg aku sekurang2nye ade kerja, idup aku xbosan bile dok umh, n ....yeah,,..tp bwat mase ni r..

Childhood Games & Toys 1 - Barbie Doll

I think I'm born to love all things pretty and lovely.. I think from young, I'm inclined to my creative side, like, very seriously, n maybe from the hobby of playing Barbie dolls had enhanced my interest towards fashion and art. I also think that, when I'm really into something, I would somehow or rather, get those things regardless of the barriers....hehe~

So tonight I'm going to spread to u guyz to a very detailed post of my once favourite toy, the Barbie doll... ;) ( y once? bcos now them barbie dolls r no longer around this house, ma... ;(

The standard price of 1 box of Barbie doll is around RM45 and above..but for the the garment set, minus the doll is at around RM20++

Back then, I admit I felt guilty whenever I asked my parents to buy a new Barbie doll..alah, tp rase guilty tu ilang skejap je kot..lg pun, my parents belikan aje...hehe...maybe sbb time tu, kitorang 3 beradik je..2 gurls n 1 boy..maybe it's quite appropriate lg utk us girls to have our own toys..but mmg pricey la jgk Barbie doll ni kan..hehe..tp slambe pau duit mak tanpa rase bersalah...hehe~ tp puas ati tau bile dpt Barbie baru...same mcm time aku skg, x berubah upenye aku ni...mst nk beli baju baru la, selendang baru la, kasut baru la..mahal ke, murah ke, janji dpt bnda tu, perghh! senyum smpi tinge..hehe~

Mak pun siap bisg da bile aku asekkkkk nk bli Barbie baru...xcukup ngn Barbie yg main tenis, nk beli Barbie kebaya plak, time Barbie kebaya ni keluar...fuh..gile kretip dorg kuakan Barbie international dlu.aku cukup soka..Barbie kebaya rambut die itam lebat btol2 mcm rambut seorang anak dara melayu jati..huhu~

OK, ni antara kenangan2 aku time main Barbie dlu, aku wat lam bntuk list senang bace..hehe...

1) Bilangan Barbie - Barbie dolls aku dlu, ade la dlm 1 dozen..tp kirenye share ngn adik pempuan aku tula..but mind u, aku punya la yg terlebeh sudah sket..haha! Aku xtau la, aku suka tgk bnda cntik2 ni...tp, most gurls pon kan..hehe~ aku ade je gmbr Barbie yg aku n adik dok snap pas kitorang siap dandan dorg n pkai kan cntik2..tp nnt kalo aku jumpe gmbr tu, aku scan buh cni..tgu~

2) Our collections - Like I said, our Barbie dolls ranged from:

• A Tennis Barbie (complete with racket and tennis table, cute white tennis suit)


• Barbie Dinner (got turkey, romantic dinner tabel for two, pink cake (slurp!), candlelight pon ade kot.. )


• Princess Barbie (with a nice, sparkly purple gown and tiara.. rindunyeeee~`)


• Kebaya Barbie (nice luscious black hair, pink kebaya, with a ring on her finger,oh my god...she's so pretty as far as I can remember)


• Sporty Barbie or smtg like dat..but I do remember this Barbie consists of 3 dolls, they wore tank tops, n their tank tops r ones which we can attach n detach from their body..not a fabric kind of top..but still, easy to mix n match maa..huhu~


• Picnic Barbie (auww..this one wore a red knit turtleneck top, red gingham long pants..the gingham prints were even popular back then!) n she also got a bike on her own... ;')

Owh, I can't remember anymore, however, moving on...

3) On naming the dolls - Hahaha! Ya Allah, kalo igt blk, alahai comelnye aku dlu siap namekan dorg (comel ke aku? buwek! haha!)..yg xthn tu, name melayu pon jadi, according to name2 artis2 popular time aku skola rndh dlu, mcm Amelina (wtf? Yes, Amelina Dangdut.. X_X), Siti Nurhaliza semestinye (buwek!), then, siap Seha pon ade.. (buwek lagi!)pastukan pastukan...konon2 every doll yg dah dinamakan sekian2 name tu, kononye dorg mmg artis tu n ade 1 lagu spesel yg mmg dorg punya...n everytime aku ngn adik aku main, kitorang siap nyanyi lagu2 tersebut.. !!! Arghhh!!!

Harharhar! I swear I'm dying from laughter rite now.. ;')

4) Barbie dresses - We mixed n matched them, creating our very own collection.. aku dlu siap sanggup beli set yg baju saje, n bg dorg pkai...siap mcm bli baju utk anak..haha! OH my god, now i really2 miss seeing all those cute dresses, tanks, shoes, i even set up their wardrobe n my sis n i tukar2kan baju dorg each time we played with them... i really admire the works done on these Barbie dolls' dresses and getups. Barbie is not like any other toys..Barbie is close to perfection, with their details on the garments, n how fast they keep up with the latest trends in fashion. i. simply. adore. *squeal*

5) On cutting the dolls' hair - OMG OMG! aku dlu, bile aku da boring tgk deme rmbut pjg (kan most Barbie dolls rmbt pjg max smpi ke punggung?)...aku snip2 je rmbut dorg tu, smbil dlm ati mcm , 'now u got a new look, hon..don't they look fab?' heh..yeah rite, the poor doll said.. ;p ade satu barbie yg main tenis ni, aku wat rmbut die fesyen bob...tp ok je aku tgk, siap pdn ngn muke die..hhehe... then ade lg satu doll ni, aku wat die tomboy sket..aku gunting abes rmbut die, then die nmpk tough sgt mcm Pink.. (a'ah, tough la sgt, siap nmpk kulit2 kepale die yg ade lubg2..fuiyo! ni baru ganaz! harhahrhar!)

Ok, this is freaky...cudn;t fine one pic in Google Image yg appropriate lorh~

6) Barbie hairstyles & hair accessories - I just lurveee...hairdressing people as much I lurrvee hairdressing my Barbies...hhuhuhu..well, usually a simple ponytail will do, but sometimes I braid them, or roll them up into a bun..heh! tp klaka gile rmbut Barbie bile diikat kuda cmtu je..cos nmpk tebal semacam...their hair is better left straight n untied actually...hehe~ I don't recall buying any specific Barbie hair accesories, so I made some of them up...from scratch! hehe...for example :

• Hairclips - I simply used stapler bullet..aku stapler kertas dlu, then bile nk kuakan ubat stapler tu, i carefully let them out, the curved part i biar cmtu je...the purpose is to hold Barbie's hair into place...NICE! It really worked, trust me.. ;)


• Hair color? - Well, I used highlighter, and it really worked wonders too...(haha gile, rosakkan rmbut anak patung dgn membubuh highlighter kt rmbut dorg..tp sbb tu anak2 patung aku, so adakah aku kesah? harharhar.. ;p)


• Hair, umm..moisturiser? - Minyak zaitun...I jus put it on the doll's hair..u see, kdg2 rmbut dorg ni tangled antara sikat tu, susah sket nk manage.. (cece da mcm iklan rambut)..tp kan, hehe...the hair will then smelt funny i tell u..sbb minyak zaitun kan..hehe..neways, rmbut dorg xdela jd pape...cume smell funny je..

7) Ken? -Nah, we didn't buy any Ken.

8) Barbie condo & games - But I always fantasize that all our Barbie dolls can talk and that they're living under one room, in a very luxurious condo or something, talking, having fun n gossiping away. Heck, I even remembered that I'd purchased ke downloaded ke hape tah..this Barbie interactive game..hurm, i think around that time, main computer games je kot.. yes! in that game, I can choose which Barbie doll is going to be me, pick her clothes, makeup etc, then pick which section of her house that I wanted to go to. And in that game too, I learned the word 'patio'.. ;)

So there u have it, hmmm...I heard now dolls even have wavy shoulder-length hair..like human one, n can style2 one lorh! hehu~

Love, Love, Love, Love, Love...

(taken from this blog)

Allah yang Maha Pemurah…

Terima kasih Engkau telah menciptakan dia dan mempertemukan saya dengannya.

Terima kasih untuk saat - saat indah yang dapat kami nikmati bersama.

Terima kasih untuk setiap pertemuan yang dapat kami lalui bersama.

Saya datang bersujud dihadapanMU…

Sucikan hati saya ya Allah, sehingga.... dapat melaksanakan kehendak dan rencanaMU dalam hidup saya.

Ya Allah, jika saya bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya, janganlah biarkan saya merindukan kehadirannya…
janganlah biarkan saya, melabuhkan hati saya dihatinya..
kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mata saya dan jauhkan dia dari relung hati saya…

Gantilah damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini dengan kasih dari dan padaMU yang tulus, murni…
dan tolonglah saya agar dapat mengasihinya sebagai sahabat.

Tetapi jika Engkau ciptakan dia untuk saya…
ya Allah tolong satukan hati kami…
bantulah saya untuk mencintai, mengerti dan menerima dia seutuhnya…
berikan saya kesabaran, ketekunan dan kesungguhan untuk memenangkan hatinya…

Ridhoi dia, agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti dan mau menerima saya dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangan saya
sebagaimana telah Engkau ciptakan…

Yakinkanlah dia bahwa saya sungguh - sungguh mencintai dan rela membagi suka dan duka saya dengan dia…

Ya Allah Maha Pengasih, dengarkanlah doa saya ini…
lepaskanlah saya dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendakMU…

Allah yang Maha kekal, saya mengerti bahwa Engkau senantiasa memberikan yang terbaik untuk saya…
luka dan keraguan yang saya alami, pasti ada hikmahnya.

Pergumulan ini mengajarkan saya untuk hidup makin dekat kepadaMU untuk lebih peka terhadap suaraMU yang membimbing saya menuju terangMU…

Ajarkan saya untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu yang telah Engkau tentukan….

Jadikanlah kehendakMU dan bukan kehendak saya yang menjadi dalam setiap bagian hidup saya…

Ya Allah, semoga Engkau mendengarkan dan mengabulkan permohonanku.

Amin…"

(taken from this site)

Islam adalah agama yang syumul. Sebuah agama yang lengkap. Islam tidak mungkin menyekat fitrah manusia yang sememangnya ingin menyayangi dan ingin disayangi. Untuk apa Allah menciptakan manusia berfitrah seperti ini jika manusia akan diperintahkan untuk memebunuh fitrahnya itu? Ajaran Islam telah diturunkan oleh Allah untuk memasang bingkai agar kemahuan manusia itu dapat disalurkan dengan cara yang terbaik. Selain itu, Islam menutup rapat jalan kemaksiatan dan membuka seluas-luasnya jalan menuju ketaatan serta memberi dorongan kuat ke arah perlaksanaanya.

(taken from this site)

There was Aristophanes’ Androgyny, Plato’s anecdote on the origins of love and mankind. The story recounts the primordial androgyny, mythical creatures with four arms, four legs and two heads. They epitomized completeness and were able to do almost anything. However, their pride in their abilities angered the gods and caused Zeus to cut them. Separated in two, they were destined to drift alone, empty and incomplete, longing for their former halves. For Plato, the androgyny is the symbol of wholeness, and the pursuit of it, is what love is.

-my current research work titled 'LOVE'..the never-gone-out-of-style topic..~

Kpd sesiapa yg berkenaan, aku akan langsaikan utang aku, jgn risau..cuma aku sgt kesuntukan masa skrg..tp aku akn poskan brg2 yg pnh aku pinjm dr kau juga..tp tgu weekend ni bile aku free sket..

Nak Sume Ni Skg...

- Beli maxi dres sgt2...td ade jumpe kt mall tp cash xcukp la plak..

- Blaja jd lbh efisien d tmpt keje, fokus tanpa apa2 gangguan bnda2 personal..

- Tgk sgt produksi pertama company, cpat la take off!

- Buat blog baju2...

- Tido skang...kapla suda berat...err, no, rite after ade skeeetttt lg keje nk wat ni...

Kesan Kerja Pada Hidup Aku Skang....

Antaranya :

1) Sebelum ni x alert pada benda2 yg pada aku 'formal', 'protokol' @ 'leceh' ....now aku da mule menguasai..contohnye mcm macam mane nk apply EPF, nak bukak visa utk foreigner, dan sebagainya...oh ye, termasuk mcm mane nk apply ASTRO dan install telepon/internet di mana semua tu ayah aku yg bwat kt umh ni..aku xnah amek tau..tsk.. -_-"

2) Sebelum ni ade mase je, edit2 gmbr la, sibuk nk kuruskan bdn la, bce blog org la, skrg balik2 umah je bleh tertido tu...

3) Setiap masa pegang handpon, bkn sbb nk mesej balak, tp sibuk dgn client..eh x, bkn la client, tp org2 yg aku kne deal dgn la slalu e.g. staf2 yg outstation (aku salu teleconferencing ngn dorg), then supplier, trainee la...huhu! letih~

4) Sebelum ni xnah lunch ngn org tua, skg terpakse sbb nk jage ati boss...aaaaaaaaaargghhhh! tidak...ala2 dlm pelem yusoff haslam gitu...'jom g lunch"...euwwww!

Tp yg sedihnye, aku makin jrg dpt spend time ngn family... ;( blk2 umh je, pas bgn tdo pn, ade keje lg kne bwat...nila die company bru bkk...staf x rmai lg..takat brp org je...nk wat cmna..

Recalling These Past Few Months....

Aidilfitri ini telah mengajarku banyak tentang erti hidup bermasyarakat..
Berkunjung ke rumah-rumah rakan/jiran bukan sekadar untuk makan kuih raya sahaja, tetapi untuk berbual/bertukar-tukar cerita/bersosial...malah niat untuk mengunjungi rumah rakan/kenalan yang mengajakmu datang itu juga boleh dikira sangat berharga dan merupakan simbol permulaan silaturrahim yg bakal menjadi utuh.

Harap-haraplah.


Raya is more than wearing nice baju kurungs or baju melayus, but our main concern should be to celebrate the success of our fasting period (ok, this is a major textbook punya ayat! ;p), but also, I think, Raya is to visit ur relatives, be good n nice to them, be friendly, n jus being there with them... ;)

Oh ye, taun ni aku bg duit raye kt cousin2..tgk la budak ni contohnye, sampai naik ke pipi die tgn aku pasal aku nk bg duit raye.... LOL... ;p


Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin all.....~

Aku Nyampah Betol Bile.... (2)

1) Time nk jemur kain, sebelum jemur tu kene clear-kan ampaian dgn mengangkat kain2 yg sblm ni sdh kering.. seryes weh! X ske...xtau nape..ske kalo de org yg tlg angkatkan...sbb mood aku tgh gigih nk sidai bju, skali dgn adenye baju2 kering tersebut yg blum diangkat, seakan mcm membunuh mood ku. Siyes. Sum1 plis angkatkan kain2 kering itu.. Saya sudah penat2 membasuh baju ni, tolong ye..bkn ssh sgt pn kn... ;p

2) Kalau sinki jenis yg ade 2 tmpt, dua-dua sink kotor time aku nk basuh pinggan (ok, skg ni maybe aku da mule kedengaran mcm org yg pembersih gile! Huhu..korg2 plis don't hate me..I'm not, actually...just on certain things - hehe, yela tu 'certain'..ni siap bwat list..huhu)....Cos bile basuh pinggan, sebaik2nye sebelah utk sume pinggan kotor dan sebelah lg utk membilas...aku rase lbh clean n organized cmtu..huhu...bagaimana pula dgn sinkin yg xde 2 tmpt? Err...err...hehe...tu...mmg aku basuh pinggan satu2...ahaks!

3) Pe lagi ek selain hal2 berkaitan kebersihan ni? huhu...emm... ok, ha, aku xske lauk nenas ikan masin r...aku rase, rase die pelik...uhuks! (sowi pade sesape yg suke lauk tersebut..)

4) Gulai asam pedas ikan yg ikan die berbau kuat gile..potong btol, ok?! (ok, perihal makanan lg...haish! domestik sungguh aku ni?)

5) Pe lg ni .....emmm...t r...tgu aku update! Kalau bleh nk crk pet peeves aku yg bkn berkaitan makanan / kebersihan lg..haha!

Aku Nyampah Betol Bile....

Hye there dear readers! ;) (motif tibe2 ceria mcm akak pengacara Disney Channel? Tah. Nak ilangkan tensen di pejabat mungkin.)

So, da lame btol x update blog ni dgn posting2 yg bersahaja n santai..so, here goes..

Aku paling nyampah / alergik bile.....

1) Tengok bakul sampah yang kosong tanpa plastik pengalas, tapi sampah da byk! Urgh! Someone plis put a plastik in therrrr... (ekceli, kt umah aku pn slalu gak blaku bnde ni..pastu sume maleh nk g amek plastik..lame2 bakul sampah tu pn terkene sampah2 basah mcm kulit pisang / chewing gum dsb.. ish3.. ;( )

2) Kalau kat restoran / dining ke ape..ade hidangan berkuah mcm sup / tomyam, tp X ADA MANGKUK ! Oi org kantin yg mangkuk! (ha kn da kne panggil mangkuk) cmna aku nk mkn sup2 ni kalo xde mangkuk ha? Ape die? X dgr...weh, aku xnk la mkn ngn nasik pastu sudukan dgn sudu...mmg la boleh, tp byk mane sgt kuah dpt kalo mkn cmtu? Which brings us to...

3) Makan lauk2 kering dlm sepinggan nasik yg da banjir dgn sup / tomyam ke ape...aku kalau bleh, bnda2 berkuah (yg mmg ptt mkn berkuah dgn sudu tu) cmtu aku nk buh lam mangkuk..bg asing....eh, kalau gulai lain ok? i mean, kate la aku banjirkan nasik ngn kuah tempoyak ke (pergh!), haaa, tu xpe..aku dgn slambe akn cmpur ayam goreng, sayur n sambal belacan pastu - double pergh!)

4) Basuh baju atas lantai bilik mandi / toilet...yg penting jgn la atas lantai, ok?! Kdg2 mak aku pn ske wat cmni..xtau r, tp aku tgk...aku lbh rela basuh baju atas para ke meja ke...(anyway, kt umh aku mmg ade tmpt khas nk bsuh bju kt blkg umh, tp ntah nape mak aku cukup ske nk bsuh style gitu gak.. -_-") eeeee...geli la..kt lantai tu kn kte da buang air, air bdn time mandi da kne, then cmne kalo period plak? Bwek3!

K..bwat mase ni, takat ni je ranting aku...huhuhuhu~

Ramadhan 2009 - Ketibaanmu kutunggu....

Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya aku telah berdosa..
Selama ini aku menjauhkan diri dari-Mu, mengambil ringan perintah-Mu,
Aku telah lupa untuk berdoa kepada-Mu..

Telingaku telah kalis dari ayat-ayat suci-Mu...
Hatiku telah hitam...malah tersangat hitam akibat sudah lama tidak mendengar dan menyerap zat-zat suci...
Aku telah lalai...aku telah alpa..
Hatiku juga telah menjadi sempit..dengan semakin byk masalah dunia...

Maka aku bersyukur dengan ketibaan Ramadhan tahun ini...
Moga-moga aku dapat menyucikan diri ini dan hati ini..sama seperti diriku yang lama dahulu...
Suci dari noda-noda dunia...~

Ya Allah, ampunkan aku..sesungguhnya aku hamba-Mu yang lemah... ;(

Setelah Sebulan Berlalu..

Kini aku sekarang hidup dalam alam pekerjaan...yang sebenar...yelah, dulu time praktikal melangut saje, siap boleh on9 dr pagi sampai ke petang, boring tahap gaban, bleh blog-hopping and update-mengupdate...sampai sebu otak xtau nk bwat pe...keje sgt ciput dan sonang....dlm mase 3 bulan itu, ya...

Tp kini....sedih tau~ jgn kate nak surfing tenet,nak tulih SMS kt si bf PON x sempat, kau!

Uhuk2....memule keje kt syrkt swasta/international ni, boring gak...keje pon x byk...n da mule rase cm, 'urgh! hidup aku akn jd cmni ke seumur hidup?' balik umah boleh exercise lg tau....

Tp sebulan kemudian, bebudak baghu mendaftar kt opis....dlm 25 org...memule 14 org je, pastu rmai yg dtg interbiu, skg da 25 org sumenye..alhamdulillah...makin ramai member aku kt cni kang...xdela boring sambil dingorat oleh pakcik tua kontraktor kutuk x sdr diri.... damn! -_-"

(weh, btol weh...da la tua kutuk, x sdr tua, pgl diri sdri 'abg' kt aku, mane tak menyirap aku..pastu keje lembap...skali aku gertak die, baghu nk siap keje die...HUH!)

Emmmm...pengalaman.....
1) Multitasking....twice as what I expected..mase nila baghu nk menyesal n nk jadi se-organized mungkin...

2) Communication.....mase memule, aku kekok nak berckp psl hal bisnes kt tepon...dlu aku igt aku kne formal...pastu ade protokol..tp skg tdk lg... ;)

3) See the other side of things....my dad...my life....my mind....

4) Bekerja dgn budak2 baya kita, tp position kte lg tgi dr org...yet again, dorg stil lyn kte mcm member...best! ;)

Sedikit Kata2 Untuk Awak....

Saye selalu pelik dgn awk...

Pada saye,
Awk selalu merendah diri...berfikir itu dan ini...padahal tiada ape yg ptt awk fikirkan utk merendahkan lagi self-esteem awk...

Kenape? Lupekan saje lah past awk...awk buat mcm yg saye buat..saye dah lupe diri saye yg dulu..dan skrg saye happy...well, xla sgt...tp i do feel better..

Kenape awk slalu ckp bnde yg same? Seolah2 awk suke hidup in the past...no, u must live in the present...kalau past awk tu gloomy, that is...u hv to erase it jauh2..

Hari ni, fikiran saye masih post-keruan-x-keruan...lebih absent minded dr biase...sy melintas jalan pagi tadi buat pertame kalinye saye x pndg kiri kanan...ibu dah menjerit 'Lori!' sebab ade lori dtg ke arah kanan saye dan saye lupe toleh...cume beberapa inci saje dari saye, lori itu...awk tau, adik kecik saye ade skali dgn saye mase tu....SANGAT bahaya..

Alhamdulillah, Allah masih sygkan saye...saye sendiri xtau kenape saye jadi sampai mcm itu...
Kerane saye teringatkan awk, fikirkan ttg awk...saye x tenang...

Saye ade mslh lain jgk, tp bile masalah saye dgn awk wujud je, tibe2 masalah2 lain jd lbh besar..

Tapi, saye berdoa kepada-Nya, kuatkan hati saya, lembutkan hati saya untuk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik...untuk lebih mudah menerima nasihat...untuk lebih mudah mengatasi semua kesilapan saya selama ini...Ya, saya sudah lupakan-Nya...selama ini...

Dugaan saya makin hebat...Mungkin ini juga peluang saya untuk mencari diri saye yg sebenar...merungkai erti hidup saye di sini..bukan sekadar utk berseronok dlm jangka masa pendek...

Kita berbeza....ya, mungkin...tp x mustahil untuk kite pecahkan halangan di antara kite kan?

Ape pun, saye wish awk bahagia juga dlm hidup awk...saye respek ape saje keputusan awk..saye cube terima kesilapan saya... ;)

A Little Thought....

People say,

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

and

"You don't know what you've got till it's gone"

So,
Love what/who you have today while they're still present...Do not wait until they're gone from ur life forever...Appreciate them now....

The Demons In Us...

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about sum serious matters...

Love....
Loyalty...
Trust...
Deception....

Even Life and Death...the two determiners in our lives on this precious Earth...our temporary lives...

Are my good deeds enuf to make me an eligible Heaven resident? I've sinned a lot...N in the beautiful religion, u being a 'nice' person does not count as being a faithful believer...U have to really take care of your words, thoughts n all...they must b pure..

I really2 forgot how to revert to my old innocent self back...naive, hardworking, honest, demure...Now it's all gone...It's all gone...

I've wronged so many people....