10 Questions In My Head~

These questions fill up my mind lately :

1) At what age will I get married?

2) Is he going to accept me?

3) Could it be possible that my Mr Right be the person I've known all this while?

4) When will I get my own freedom?

5) Will I be a good wife & mother?

6) Will I E.V.E.R...get a nice dashboard tummy like those Hollywood celebs on a normal not-working-out-day? Tee hee. (I've fukin tried so many things to get it flat yo...but somehow it juz didn't work...it's like my tummy's been cursed to bloat like hell 4 the rest of my life!) ;)

7) Is birth process gonna be painful...well...4 me? o.0

8) Am I gonna have a happy, long-lasting marriage? (I'm so afraid of marriage when I read about all these unhappy news about marriage life) :-S

9) Urm....will I ever get my dream man to be my Mr Right?

10) Will I get to travel overseas, to my dream place like LA, England and France? Haha. Nope, I'm serious.

I'm a True Libra, I Am

(These excerpts are copied from the Internet, but skimmed and analyzed by myself :)

1. Self-realization

The Libra personality is one with a strong sense of right and wrong, who despises discord and confrontation. These are tactful people who approach life with a bit of sugar-coating to make the ride less bumpy for themselves and for those around them.
* Hehe...very true....but guys, it's not good to always sugar-coat everything....always be honest with ur feelings n ppl around u.. :)

Libra appreciates beauty, and will usually have top quality possessions and a tasteful wardrobe and hair style.
Because Venus, the goddess of love, rules Libras, they appreciate beauty in anything, whether it is a person, art, or music. Because Libras love and appreciate beauty, their homes are often filled with exquisite and attractive items. They enjoy owning the best money can buy and take pride in their good taste. Because of their affection for beauty, Libras make great designers, artists, and musicians.

* I do...I've always loved to collect cutesy things, I always admire tasteful fashions, beautiful people, etc.. ;)

Libras do not handle criticism very well, which often makes them seem insecure. But one of their biggest faults is the need for admiration. They like to be the centre of attention and be praised for things they do, so some may see them as self-centred.

* Heheh...I USED to be this person... :p I just need some pat on the back, not really a limelight, yet again, ppl might be confused with that.. :p

2. Work
This is a good networker with a lot of business contacts, who is good at bringing people together for the common good. Co-workers will find Libra charming and diplomatic, and will often seek out Libra with personal or professional problems due to Libra's ability to see both sides of the issue.
*No wonder I always feel like I have a knack to be a PR / be involved with the media etc :o

Libra may not be the fastest worker due to his tendency to examine all aspects of a task, but the finished product will generally be near perfect, with all the bases covered.
* So true....my mum ALWAYS said I do my work very slowly, but in reality, no, that's not what's happening....I have my own pace when it comes to doing tasks / jobs :p

Due to his inherent need for balance and justice, Libra can generally be trusted to deal with issues in the workplace fairly and honestly.

* Heheh.... ;p

3. Friendship
Libras are generally well-liked in their social circles and function best in situations in which they are surrounded by admiring friends and family.

In their quest to be all things to all people, Libra may come off as somewhat flirtatious in some instances, and may have a tendency towards gossip, as they can't get enough of learning all about the people around them.

* "Learning all abt the ppl around them"...yep, so true... ;)

They are the peacekeepers of the zodiac, and when trouble arises, you can count on Libra to help smooth ruffled feathers.

Libra in any relationship is a loyal friend who is interested in your issues and who will bend over backwards to treat you fairly. However, watch out for little white lies that are designed to sugar coat the rough edges of reality for you.

* Huh~ :(

Libra will be kind and compassionate, and will welcome you into their circle of friends readily.

* So true... :)

In general, friendship with a Libra will be an easy-going, long-lasting, satisfying experience.

4. Love
If you have found a romantic partner in Libra, you have found a classy, intelligent, caring, and sensual partner indeed. Your Libra mate will be loyal and fair, and will be an empathetic listener who will ignore your shortcomings for the sake of harmony in the relationship. For those who are Libras, do make a quick mental check to be sure that you are not hooking up just to have someone around. The mentality that anyone is better than no one is very strong in the Libra personality and may cause you to make unfortunate mistakes in your choice of partners.

:( :( :( :( (I'll try....Insya Allah :))

The best matches for Libra are Aquarius, Gemini, and another Libra. With a little work, relationships with Leo, Virgo, or Sagittarius may last. It will likely be tough going with Aries, Cancer, and Capricorn.

* The guy I'm currently with - err, he's a Cap....and we DID had a few blows since our early courtship it threatened our relationship...but more on him later...

Because they are so understanding of other's feelings, they may be seen as indecisive or unable to make up their minds. Any sign as blessed with charm as Libras are can always be seen as flirtatious.

* Tetttt! In your face!

Because a Libra values beauty so much, they may sometimes become too focused on outward beauty and forget to look deeper into a person's full character.

*Hmm.....maybe true....once..but I'm on my way towards becoming a better person... :)

5. Famous Librans

Actors/Entertainers

• Michael Douglas
• Susan Sarandon
• Angela Lansbury
• Carrie Fisher
• Matt Damon
• Gwyneth Paltrow
• Naomi Watts
• Jean-Claude Van Damme
• Alicia Silverstone (she even shares birth date with me! :p - 4 October)
• Kate Winslet

Musicians/Singers

• Sting
• John Lennon
• Chuck Berry
• Luciano Pavarotti

Artists/Writers

• T.S. Elliot
• Truman Copote
• E.E. Cummings
• Friedrich Nietzsche

Leaders/Politicians

• Mahatma Gandhi
• Jesse Jackson
• Margaret Thatcher
• Dwight Eisenhower
• Jess Helms

P/S : Oh, this is Ne-Yo's latest album...eh, is he a Libran too? :p

Bile da moody sbb demam, jgn g opis ok..

So today, I went to the office as usual....yesterday was down with fever...so..

Pagi tadi mmg sedikit moody, sebab rase mcm demam x demam, tapi sbb tau bos mmg xkn paham, so gigihkan jugak dtg keje walaupun org len da mcm 'apebende la nk g opis gak time demam2...MC suda'

Well, people juz won't understand, that's how I put it..But I admit, it kinda sucked. I mean, bos x send byk sgt emel pun tadi...oh but still, sape yg nk wat keje2 tu sume kalo bukan aku kan?

Uhukhukh.....anyways, so pagi tadi nekad xnk stress myself out sgt...so adalah berharap ingin membuat kerja pd kadar yg ringan sahaja...xmo stress2 ok... (hikhik, da mcm pesakit jantung kronik, xleh stress2..ops~)

Duduk3, then, tetibe ter-stress, tp bkn sbb keje, but rather, dgn kerenah colleague...not a big deal really, but rather... cuz it's about people being so meek they couldn't stand up 4 themselves and let others trample them..see, this is y i hate being in the malay clan...we ppl tend to shut our real feelings and instead we r more comfy to go with the flow, eventho' we despise it so much...i, for one, sometimes i do pretend as well, but i can't assure that i pretend 100%.there MUST be at least a 90% chance that I'll show my dislikeness towards something..

A few hours after, I decided to go downstairs to ask for a favor from this akak....went there at about 3 pm ke atas, time org bru2 pas mkn sume kan....bos pn outta sight (but still alive n kickin' in email)...so I decided, y wait? settle all ur kerja la kan...

Lepak punya lepak ngn akak tu, I pn nk blk da...there's this receptionist gurl kt this level yg...well, she used to go to the same skool as I am, only thing is, we all xla rapat sgt..but then when 1 day I realized that fact, we talked for awhile n added her in fb n vice versa la...I notice that she never commented me or what not..not that I care, like, mcm..ok, fine...tp keje 1 building kot kan..at least pls be friendly....or maybe I was too polite to her, n it's not her way of socializing...anyways...

Bleh bygkan sum1 mulekan salam perkenalan dgn kau, bkn dgn 'hai, bz arini?', bkn dgn 'sarah! cuti weekend ni pegi mane?' dan juga bkn dgn, 'hai!' juzt a simple hi...no, kali ni salam perkenalan dibuat dgn 'nape dah gemuk ni u?'

.................

Rants

1) So today, I was criticized, it's regarding my work ethic. That I'm not being efficient enough, That I'm not organized enough. That I'm very bad at my time management skills. Oh, lemme check that again. So what are on my list currently? Oh yeah :
- To do a market research (estimated time to finish : 2-3 weeks, requirement : to sit in front of the laptop, making phone calls to the right person, bla3..taking notes, presenting a report or some sort)
- To look for accommodations for upcoming new staffs (from overrrrsea, uu....) - so haruslah cari rumah2 yg tip top, xmo la umah setinggan yg rm500 sebulan, kemas dan bersih tp KECIK tu kn..dorg nye standard mane la nak umh kecik2 ni, haruslah rumah yg beso2, plg2 koman rm1200 sebulan pn bleh lg...asalkan nmpk mhl...itulah die.. (estimated time to finish : a few weeks as well, provided that I have ample time to go out of the office ans scout around, making phone calls, n if I do, have to follow-up with the agent rumah, arranging time for my boss to go over there, then follow- up some more, then kalau dorg xske, oh ye, repeat step 1 again..) - and un-officially I'm also the 'ajen rumah' of my company
- To arrange for a VIP's upcoming visit around this month in terms of preparing the office deco (portrait of VIP, posters, layouts, printing bla3..) and guess what, I'm usually the person yg have to go outside to those print shops...
- AT the same time, upkeeping of office supplies and...
- Upkeeping of monthly payroll
- Taking care of MOST of the things at the office
- Oh yeah, not only handling the technical stuffs, but handling perangai2 n peel2 bosses n senior management yg mcm H.A.R.A.M.


I was the one who ran the office since the past year, underappreciated...And they're telling me how to do my work...

2) Men
- Just what is it with men who :
a) is curang, but xpandai cover line? masalahnye, in the end, we got scolded by their unknowing gf, yg konon2nye kte yg menggatal, padahal balak die sdri yg terhegeh2 kt kte...pastu bile kantoi, dgn ajaibnye mamat2 ni kecut egg n trus menghilang...c'mon, be a man!
b) who juz refuses to confront a problem by not communicating baik2 dgn his girl? i know it's nature's law, but at the time, it's bugging me...

Moped...

Now, all was well yesterday.And the day after. I was feeling over the top, singing my heart out, until...tonight..

I just saw something ... which made me

1) sad, guilty, stupid

2) look stupid, angry, n just...irritated and annoyed

Man, weekend nights r supposed to be relaxing, but..heck, yeah, I KNOW it's only temporary..provided I only have 2 days of relaxing (which cud b freakin' short of a time!) then it's back to work again. Back to the old nagging boss who constantly forgets and then, xde keje len, menyergah org len sebelum tau asal usul cite. Nice.

I feel so down now that I cud relax to Westlife's rendering of 'I Wanna Grow Old With You'. ;(

Made me feel...I wanna be loved again. For someone to take care after me, know what's on my mind, know how to touch me...touch me inside... (now ni terpengaruh lagu jojo sebelum tu, 'how to touch a girl'..haih~) love me, above all...

I'm gonna feel so down tomorrow...dah la Isnin...

I'm a sensitive person. Aku ni kalau org kate sket, aku akn terase..dan ini bukan kate aku gemuk, or aku ckp byk ke ape...heck, aku laaagi suke bile org ckp aku ckp byk, instead of the other way around..

I just xsuke ..bile...I'm connected with all things dowdy n frumpy. Cos my life mmg da bosan, n then org nmpk aku cm bosan padehal aku bleh je msuk sume org..n they misjudge me.damn, i hate it when they misjudge me.

So, all in all...i just hope I'll still turn out OK tomorrow. Pls y'all, pray for me...

Alahai.....

Nape la kau x kekal imej cmni je, Adam oii?~~~(gmbr no 2 siyes hawt~ 0.0)

Woo ooo oooo.... (Addicted lagu bad romen, eh romance)

OK, so ritu da g Grik, jumpa Zambry, salam tgn ngn dia... (haha, yela tu..salam tgn MB Perak kunun...huh! jumpa jaafar onn selaku MC lg ade..)

Haha, abeh la, Jakpa Onn kenal bos aku siot...katenye knal same2 kt Bangsar dlu...pastu die trus kaco2 aku time kt meja mkn..hehe.. asek glak je bile ngn die... ;p abeh la, pasni leh r aku apply nk jd tetamu undangan die utk rncgn memasak..hahahaha!

So, esok ade photography session kt opis..(best2! sbb sok nk pkai semat2 gile, tepek2 mekap segala..)

Mcm blog ni jgk, sok ade 2 meeting (gasp!) di mana bos aku akn tny sume staf, "Updates!!" ...bygkn meeting wat tiap2 mgu...tp keje yg diberi bajet leh siap dlm 3 mgu..maunye nk menjwb "Outstanding / pending lg puan..." seraya menunduk malu lantas meng-cover2 suara dgn mengatakan "by this week i siapkan, puan.." Argghh! Puan, tlg la jgn wat meeting tiap2 mgu, boleh? Huhu...~

Blog aku ni pon tah mcm mane update...ayat da x kretif cm dlu kot..bese la, skg keje opis..kretiviti tu ase mcm da ilang tau... (tit tit tit..bunyi robot)

Haha! Other than that (da mcm karangan BI), member2 skola rndh aku (yg kirenye kalo dak laki, da lebey 10 tawun x jumpe ooo! pasal dak pempuan ade la gak jumpe2 time skola convent n yu-ai-ti-em dlu...) nk wat reunion 14 Feb ni...x jd g genting..huhu~

Emm..deme nk jumpe 14 Feb ni kt Moven Peak...huhu...besh2...14 Feb? hurm...byknye occasion pd ari ni kn...hehe~

Mlm ni aku dok wat keje lg..huhu..sian lak aku dengo bos aku arini MC sbb ade prob...skg ni kdg2 aku ase aku da jd member bek bos aku..huhu~

P/S : Oh, aku baru tau yg band yg nyanyi lagu "Hate (I Really Don't Like U)" adalah Plain White T's....like, whoa!! Xsangke...rock on, dudes!!

Update as at 27 Jan 2010

Fuh...ayat pun da mcm formal+sekretari gile skg.. akaun coming soon la..hehe..

So this Saturday I'm going to Grik..company trip..my first ever company trip..huhu..excited? well..both yes and no..

Excited sbb pengalaman yg baru..tp x brp excited sbb Sabtu da reserve utk rilek2, tetibe....hehe...

Well, last few days ade satu ari tu aku down sgt...bnda yg aku plan x jadi..punah...hancus...aku tatau nape aku menitiskan byk sgt airmata time tu...siap jd cm emo sgt...

tp tgk2 soknye aku ok...CFO aku siap wat lawak time meeting..die tegur aku tulih minit mesyuarat ayat mcm dlm novel..siap mcm nk pujuk org...HAHAHA! Siap ari tu glak2 lg time naik lif..

Huhu..pnat la...abeh la aku..pasni full swing da company...abeh la aku...workaholic la jwbnye... x10...

Tensen Tensen Tensen.......

Kat tempat kerja :

- Makcik cleaner yg annoying

- Pekerja yg lembap dan x efisien

- Sistem company yg ntahape2

- Kene handle byk org yg ntahape2

- Dtg2 opis, bnda2 kecik pn kne handle jgk, meaning selain taip surat n col2 org, ni pintu bilik bos pn aku kne bukakkan utk makcik cleaner cuci..die xleh bkk sbb die xde kunci..n die xde kunci sbb die xleh ade kunci...grrrr! bile aku lupe nk bkk, da jd leceh sbb aku kne bgn dr work station aku tgh syok2 wat keje len yg lbh best n executive-like!

- Skg ni, aku handle bhg admin..tp kitorang masih lam fasa set up office..so byk bnda xde.even stationery pn kne beli..pastu sume staf kne smbil2 blaja byk bnda..i know this is common, but it's too much. I'm damn overloaded with work. Dah ckp kt bos, i need an assistant, tp sbb die x cukp funding,has to ask every staff to multitask la...oh ma FG!

Rumah :

- Xleh relaks sket, kne wat kerja umah

- Bile bergayut (ngn sape2 je), kerja x jln

- Segala2nya terkwal - pergerakan dan pemikiran aku

-Hey! Nak keluar hari Sabtu pn x boleh tau! Mak aku x bg..katenye "nape la nk kua..duk umh wat keje umh lg bagus...tu katil bilik tu berhabuk, baik la dikemas:@ "musim2 org skt ni watpe kua?"@ "nape nk kua?nk shopping lg?brp byk bju da bli?"

2 options:

- berhenti kerja n duk umh

- be a happy & positive person

So arini aku nk enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nak Sume Ni Skg...

- Beli maxi dres sgt2...td ade jumpe kt mall tp cash xcukp la plak..

- Blaja jd lbh efisien d tmpt keje, fokus tanpa apa2 gangguan bnda2 personal..

- Tgk sgt produksi pertama company, cpat la take off!

- Buat blog baju2...

- Tido skang...kapla suda berat...err, no, rite after ade skeeetttt lg keje nk wat ni...

Kesan Kerja Pada Hidup Aku Skang....

Antaranya :

1) Sebelum ni x alert pada benda2 yg pada aku 'formal', 'protokol' @ 'leceh' ....now aku da mule menguasai..contohnye mcm macam mane nk apply EPF, nak bukak visa utk foreigner, dan sebagainya...oh ye, termasuk mcm mane nk apply ASTRO dan install telepon/internet di mana semua tu ayah aku yg bwat kt umh ni..aku xnah amek tau..tsk.. -_-"

2) Sebelum ni ade mase je, edit2 gmbr la, sibuk nk kuruskan bdn la, bce blog org la, skrg balik2 umah je bleh tertido tu...

3) Setiap masa pegang handpon, bkn sbb nk mesej balak, tp sibuk dgn client..eh x, bkn la client, tp org2 yg aku kne deal dgn la slalu e.g. staf2 yg outstation (aku salu teleconferencing ngn dorg), then supplier, trainee la...huhu! letih~

4) Sebelum ni xnah lunch ngn org tua, skg terpakse sbb nk jage ati boss...aaaaaaaaaargghhhh! tidak...ala2 dlm pelem yusoff haslam gitu...'jom g lunch"...euwwww!

Tp yg sedihnye, aku makin jrg dpt spend time ngn family... ;( blk2 umh je, pas bgn tdo pn, ade keje lg kne bwat...nila die company bru bkk...staf x rmai lg..takat brp org je...nk wat cmna..

Peningnye~~

So far, minggu ni, keje di opis bz x terkate, xyah ckp la.. bile the superiors dtg, of kos yg inferior akn merase inferior...dan semua keje akan dipulun demi meng-impresskan dorg..selame ni wat keje sambil lewa tp kali ni, jd siyes n komited blk mcm awl2 msuk keje dlu..

huhu...penat..tu je vocab aku mgu ni.. dgn kemasukan staf baru, bkn lg sng, tp lg pening sbb nk die sesuaikan diri..seb ebk akak tu is a pleasant person..so far..hehe..

Pnat la cmni weh...ari2 keje smpi kul 5.30 pn x abeh lg keje...bos2 besa pn xreti wat keje, apetah lg kte yg setaun jagung ni..dorg screw up, tp kte jgk yg kne....haih` mmg la "all in a day's work"..

Tp xpe, sok aku nk attend party farewell dak2 opis ni..huhu....syg korg..thanx sbb ajak aku.. ;p

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Aku Nyampah Betol Bile.... (2)

1) Time nk jemur kain, sebelum jemur tu kene clear-kan ampaian dgn mengangkat kain2 yg sblm ni sdh kering.. seryes weh! X ske...xtau nape..ske kalo de org yg tlg angkatkan...sbb mood aku tgh gigih nk sidai bju, skali dgn adenye baju2 kering tersebut yg blum diangkat, seakan mcm membunuh mood ku. Siyes. Sum1 plis angkatkan kain2 kering itu.. Saya sudah penat2 membasuh baju ni, tolong ye..bkn ssh sgt pn kn... ;p

2) Kalau sinki jenis yg ade 2 tmpt, dua-dua sink kotor time aku nk basuh pinggan (ok, skg ni maybe aku da mule kedengaran mcm org yg pembersih gile! Huhu..korg2 plis don't hate me..I'm not, actually...just on certain things - hehe, yela tu 'certain'..ni siap bwat list..huhu)....Cos bile basuh pinggan, sebaik2nye sebelah utk sume pinggan kotor dan sebelah lg utk membilas...aku rase lbh clean n organized cmtu..huhu...bagaimana pula dgn sinkin yg xde 2 tmpt? Err...err...hehe...tu...mmg aku basuh pinggan satu2...ahaks!

3) Pe lagi ek selain hal2 berkaitan kebersihan ni? huhu...emm... ok, ha, aku xske lauk nenas ikan masin r...aku rase, rase die pelik...uhuks! (sowi pade sesape yg suke lauk tersebut..)

4) Gulai asam pedas ikan yg ikan die berbau kuat gile..potong btol, ok?! (ok, perihal makanan lg...haish! domestik sungguh aku ni?)

5) Pe lg ni .....emmm...t r...tgu aku update! Kalau bleh nk crk pet peeves aku yg bkn berkaitan makanan / kebersihan lg..haha!

Aku Nyampah Betol Bile....

Hye there dear readers! ;) (motif tibe2 ceria mcm akak pengacara Disney Channel? Tah. Nak ilangkan tensen di pejabat mungkin.)

So, da lame btol x update blog ni dgn posting2 yg bersahaja n santai..so, here goes..

Aku paling nyampah / alergik bile.....

1) Tengok bakul sampah yang kosong tanpa plastik pengalas, tapi sampah da byk! Urgh! Someone plis put a plastik in therrrr... (ekceli, kt umah aku pn slalu gak blaku bnde ni..pastu sume maleh nk g amek plastik..lame2 bakul sampah tu pn terkene sampah2 basah mcm kulit pisang / chewing gum dsb.. ish3.. ;( )

2) Kalau kat restoran / dining ke ape..ade hidangan berkuah mcm sup / tomyam, tp X ADA MANGKUK ! Oi org kantin yg mangkuk! (ha kn da kne panggil mangkuk) cmna aku nk mkn sup2 ni kalo xde mangkuk ha? Ape die? X dgr...weh, aku xnk la mkn ngn nasik pastu sudukan dgn sudu...mmg la boleh, tp byk mane sgt kuah dpt kalo mkn cmtu? Which brings us to...

3) Makan lauk2 kering dlm sepinggan nasik yg da banjir dgn sup / tomyam ke ape...aku kalau bleh, bnda2 berkuah (yg mmg ptt mkn berkuah dgn sudu tu) cmtu aku nk buh lam mangkuk..bg asing....eh, kalau gulai lain ok? i mean, kate la aku banjirkan nasik ngn kuah tempoyak ke (pergh!), haaa, tu xpe..aku dgn slambe akn cmpur ayam goreng, sayur n sambal belacan pastu - double pergh!)

4) Basuh baju atas lantai bilik mandi / toilet...yg penting jgn la atas lantai, ok?! Kdg2 mak aku pn ske wat cmni..xtau r, tp aku tgk...aku lbh rela basuh baju atas para ke meja ke...(anyway, kt umh aku mmg ade tmpt khas nk bsuh bju kt blkg umh, tp ntah nape mak aku cukup ske nk bsuh style gitu gak.. -_-") eeeee...geli la..kt lantai tu kn kte da buang air, air bdn time mandi da kne, then cmne kalo period plak? Bwek3!

K..bwat mase ni, takat ni je ranting aku...huhuhuhu~

Current Updates....

Kete : Makin pandai bawak.. cume arini, baru sedar, time tgh pnat/marah/tensen, bwk kete pn mst nk laju n x smooth..ish3..bahaye org yg duk sebelah..~

Keje : Da makin cekap, da mesra ngn bdk2 bru (kot...boleh r...), tp.....masih x cukup ilmu ttg bnda2 opis bese, isu semasa dan sewaktu dgnnye... -_-"

Family : Emmm...ok...our relationship has improved to the next level... (? cam siyes je bunyik?)

Bf : A bit bumpy, with other people catching our attentions during each other's presence..But things are hopefully expected to be better now... ;)

My own self : LOTSSSSSS have been learned...n i mean, LOTSSSS....

Uncle Hussain Cakap Kerjalah...Lalalala...

Skg.....da keje....
Pnat gile weh....x menang tgn dibuatnye.....
La ni baghu nak ghase keje sebenar....
Aduh.....

Aku Mahu Saiz S! Urghhh!

This is what I've found in a bookstore last week....a chicklit novel...in BM...(wow! chicklit? BM some more? Wah, new concept meh...Aku selame ni bace chicklit omputih jela kan, tp..dek disebabkan tajuk novel ini ("Aku Mahu Saiz S") yg sgt catchy ok, dan2 lemak2 plak maseh melekat di badan ini cenggini ekoran diet yg tidak strict, makanya..... "ibu, akak nk beli buku ni!" (k la, actually saje je nk try test beli chicklit BM..haha...blagak gile kn ayat?)

"Aku nmpk gemuk x?" Urgh! Sgt geli tgk gmbr ni, mcm mak org...i knew i shudn't be wearing this dress! Or be this big!

"Aku Mahu Saiz S" daripada Ain Maisara...bagus jugak penulisan die ni...bleh thn la komersial die...n u guyz know what, buku ni sebenarnye ditujukan kepada remaja....HOH! kantoi2...lari...~~
(cos nak bace camne nk jadi saiz S punya pasal, amek ko..aku yg dah umo 20an ni pon sambar buku ni...seb bek RM16 je..huhu)

Beli lah buku2 keluaran PTS One...fresh dan yg plg penting, berbaloi2..huhu..sempat plak jd promoter x bergaji sini (ayat lame..haha) this is their website, by the way....i'm not sure if they also publish book for a maturer audience, but...i think what PTS One had done is a very good start to the local publication industry..hehe... ~

Pelakon Air Mata Yet Again..

Iklan : Lepas ni...kene bwat phone call lagi...hurm....Prestasi aku di tempat keje mcm makin merosot..

Semalam..
I found out that I am actually able to be a 'pelakon air mata' spontan...
I was able to say serious things when in my heart, I'm a kiddie...
When I'm confronted with that matter..

You said you have lost the battle..I said 'no, let's move on...masa kita panjang lagi...byk perlu ditempuhi...jgn tamatkan zaman muda ni begitu cpt dan putus asa..'

*is that how I say it? ohh, but..anggap la lbh krg kn...anyho, that IS what I want to say..*

Ahhhh.......
Sangat la x pandai bermadah2 pujangga mcm ni kan...tapi...I have to let it all out..

Runsing skg...mcm2 hal blaku...keje...die...uh!

Tgk flash mob zombie pun lagi seronok la!

Hope kite x runsing sgt, ok...bahaya utk kesihatan... ingat Tuhan byk2...Dia Maha Penyayang...~

Gemuknya Aku... Ya Allah!!

Hari ni, 2x tuka baju sebelum g opis... memule kai cardigan, tp singkat n nmpk butt, then tuka baju kurta (mcm bju labuh yg indians slalu pkai) itam, tp die fit n nmpk seksi..x proper la kan...dah la bum besa...so tuka..last2 pkai cardigan putih yg pjg sket n x ktt kt perut..

Bleh je nk pkai baju kurung, senang, tutup aurat satu, lg satu nmpk r sopan sket... n xla menonjol sgt drpd staf2 opis len yg kebyknnye kai bju kurung...kalau kai sua pun, dorg kai dgn bju kemeja opis/company....uhuk~

Sbb aku ni natural-born fashionista, aku mmg ske menongkah arus sket dlm bab pemakaian ni...aku gak byk dipengaruhi oleh majalah2 cm cleo, teen vogue, yg bile jumpe artikel sal office wear, aku lbh teruja tgk style2 blaus, pdn dgn sua slek yg mcm mane, lg kalau leh pkai ngn skirt labuh, nk pkai mcm mane...kaler ape yg sesuai utk opis sume...kureng sket ngn idea pakai bju kurung tiap2 ari ni..kt U dlu pn, seboleh2nye aku nk pkai sua...tp kalau btol2 perlu kai sumting decent utk menutup 'keseksian' di bhg2 tertentu...aku akur....ya lah, bkn rugi ape pn kn...huhu...nk g blaja je pn...bt then, i oso believe in looking good while ur studying/taking notes and all...i akn jd bersemangat sket pastu...u look good, u feel good...anyway, not that aku membenci sgt bju kurung...dlm seminggu plg2 aku pkai 2x r kn...kt U n kt opis skg...

nk je pkai skirt, last time pkai skirt ngn kemeja time matrik dlu je..skg nk pkai, tula...if only my bottom is not so 'prosperous'...leh r aku nk pkai skirt2 labuh itu...atau sua slek yg saiz mmg utk aku...ni kalau saiz 36 pn da ktt, cmne bai? aku ni pear-shape rupenye kot eh..gemuk dr tummy ke bwh...kt situuuuuu jgk lemak2 nk berkumpul kn...kt perut pun die ske je nk hinggap...kalau aku pakai kain guni itam kt bwh kn, pastu duduk kt meja, org bleh tertipu gak tgk aku igtkan kurus slim, rupenye, bile aku jln, arrgh! mcm patung marishka dr rusia ni...

Eh, ni gemuk btol chubby dr muke ni! Ahh, lantak la..get my point, rite? Huhu...

pastu lemak tu ske duduk lame2 kt prot ni...aku da try get rid (exercise) pn die degil jgk nk duduk situ..seolah2 mcm nk ckp yg aku ni da mmg ditakdirkan utk boncit n ber-bum besa mcm mak org anak 4... -_-"*sedih* mak org anak 5 pn, ntah2 x besa cm aku...

ok la...losing weight is NOT an easy feat. heh, utk seseorg yg follow 'Biggest Loser' sampai season 4.... emmm...should not be...sbb dlm cite tu, org yg 400 paun pn leh trn sampai 200 paun, ni kan pulak aku yg cume 100++ paun ni...

aku rase lemak bdn aku ni jns yg degil r... (surrender)

x pun sbb brt tulang je kot..eheh ....eheh... (gelak nervous)

x pun, emmmmm...maybe org yg brt 300++ paun tu sng trn sbb dorg brt lemak kot...aku ni maybe brt muscle je kot.. (dah berat muscle pulak? mcm2 la bdk ni kn..)

tp...aku bkn xpnh exercise and eat right...it's just that....i dunno...it didn't work...die dah nk work pn, there r too many temptations at home...mcm pg ni, da elok2 aku tgk bdn aku kt cermin, flab kt perot tu mcm nk susut...aku bkk tdg saji tgk breakfast ade pe....slalunye roti bkr je mak bwat kan...skali......NASI LEMAK mak bwat!!! Arrgghhhh!!! Tidak! Nasik lemak mak aku mmg la sdp..kalau beli kt org punya yg aku liat nk mkn...tp ni,,,mak punya....

owh, shit ,man..shit, shit...kalau x mkn ari ni, bile lg mak akn bwat kn....

so ambik la...nasik nye..emm, rasenye nasik separuh je....tp pas mkn da mule rase bersalah...knp la x terpikir nk bungkus je nsk tu utk mkn time lunch nnt kn? da la plan xnk trn kafe arinin cos tkt abg kafe tu tgk aku ni pelik cos bdn mcm mak org....argh!! ahhh!! budus2!

pedas oo nsk lemak pg ni.....fuhh! mak pkai cili kering ni! xpela..tetibe ade mentol berbunyi 'ting' kt kepala..."kalau mkn pds pagi2, pastu kt opis kang kunyah cereal sket utk cepatkan penghadaman, sure akan bernyahtinja pagi ni..." yes! mknn menggemukan itu akn kua blk! huhu...n tetibe gak tingat org2 bulimia...tp, tu len...dorg pakse mknn kua kn..then ikut mulut...plan aku ni....x...hehehe~ eh lg pn aku x ske muntah2 do...pnat ooo..

ok...cubaan hari kedua post-menstruation days utk menurunkan berat bdn...haih..ntah la...aku kt U dlu, xnah exercise pn tetiap ari dgn tekun, mkn 3 kali sehari cm bese, leh je kurus...ni kt umh, diet n exercise mcm nk gile pn, bleh plak nk bertmbh brt bdn tu....ape kes? mmg kene pose kot? n lidah ni kne thn dr bernafsu nk mkn sdp2 kot... ;(